As an Empty Bottle of Gin
Title : As an Empty Bottle of Gin. 1/?
Author : trying_t0_be
Pairing : Gerard/Frank
Rating : R
POV : Frank’s
Summary : The bottle of Gin is on the table. Empty. As I am.
Disclaimer : I’m a liar.
Warning : Alcohol and mention of rape.
Empty.
The bottle of Gin is on the table. Empty. As I am. You’re looking at me from the door, you’re disgusted by me, I can tell it by your eyes. You ask me why, why have I drank all of this bottle? I can’t answer. You’ll not understand, nobody can understand why I drink so much.
I am looking to my friend, he was good, as always, too bad that I killed it. I needed it to feel full again but unfortunately it doesn’t help me.
You take the bottle and throw it in the garbage. Bye bye little bottle, I loved you.
You tell me to stop, you don’t want to see me be like you were before, before when you were drunk. But Gerard, little doll, it’s already to late, I am drunk, I am an alcoholic and you can’t do nothing about it. Because nobody can do something for me. I am what I am because of myself, because I’m cold. I don’t need you to hug me, it will never help. I have been frozen for a long time now, since I have meet him. Your brother, the fucker. You say that you’re sorry but it’s not your fault. It’s my fault. I have let him do what he did to me, I let him rape me.
Stop telling me that! It’s my fault, I know it !I let him play with me. I was okay until this time, the time he forced me, but it was my fault!
Don’t cry little doll, I don’t like to see you cry, I don’t like it because I love you. You’re so perfect. No, you are, you are what I want to be, you’re so beautiful, you’re so alive, you are so full and so warm. You’re what I am not, you’re what I’ll never be. You beg me to stop the booze, you beg me to not kill myself. I can’t promise that, I can’t because I know that I won’t stop, I know that one day I’ll be fed up of me.
I caress your cheek and your hair, you do the same with my arm. You yawn. You’re tired. Go to bed little doll. Yes, I promise you that I'll come to your bunk later. Tomorrow you’ll find me by your side ...
Author : trying_t0_be
Pairing : Gerard/Frank
Rating : R
POV : Frank’s
Summary : The bottle of Gin is on the table. Empty. As I am.
Disclaimer : I’m a liar.
Warning : Alcohol and mention of rape.
Empty.
The bottle of Gin is on the table. Empty. As I am. You’re looking at me from the door, you’re disgusted by me, I can tell it by your eyes. You ask me why, why have I drank all of this bottle? I can’t answer. You’ll not understand, nobody can understand why I drink so much.
I am looking to my friend, he was good, as always, too bad that I killed it. I needed it to feel full again but unfortunately it doesn’t help me.
You take the bottle and throw it in the garbage. Bye bye little bottle, I loved you.
You tell me to stop, you don’t want to see me be like you were before, before when you were drunk. But Gerard, little doll, it’s already to late, I am drunk, I am an alcoholic and you can’t do nothing about it. Because nobody can do something for me. I am what I am because of myself, because I’m cold. I don’t need you to hug me, it will never help. I have been frozen for a long time now, since I have meet him. Your brother, the fucker. You say that you’re sorry but it’s not your fault. It’s my fault. I have let him do what he did to me, I let him rape me.
Stop telling me that! It’s my fault, I know it !I let him play with me. I was okay until this time, the time he forced me, but it was my fault!
Don’t cry little doll, I don’t like to see you cry, I don’t like it because I love you. You’re so perfect. No, you are, you are what I want to be, you’re so beautiful, you’re so alive, you are so full and so warm. You’re what I am not, you’re what I’ll never be. You beg me to stop the booze, you beg me to not kill myself. I can’t promise that, I can’t because I know that I won’t stop, I know that one day I’ll be fed up of me.
I caress your cheek and your hair, you do the same with my arm. You yawn. You’re tired. Go to bed little doll. Yes, I promise you that I'll come to your bunk later. Tomorrow you’ll find me by your side ...