It's been a while old friend
I don't really write on LJ anymore. I often fade in and out of my recordings here....
Things are good though. I'm working two jobs now-waitressing and personal assisting-which are both going well. I'm hopefully starting my first yoga class this evening. It reminds me of all the times I really should have gone with Rachel. I just didn't have the motivation then, I guess. I missed out on a lot of things over the years because I didn't have the motivation. That's a September resolution I'm working on. I'm going to Holyoke Community College later this month to talk about options and possibly enrolling in the spring semester. We'll see how that goes.
And speaking of seeing how things go that's how I'm feeling about my recent big announcement. I still feel that Billy is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, but I'm not so sure that the time to start that is in 2008. We've been talking about a possible 2009 wedding. There's no rush and I want to make sure it's the right move because I only want to get married once. I want to do it right-from the timing to the ceremony to how to work things out financially. We're doing so well. It's so vital for me to have stable relationships in my life because so often I'm not. And although Billy and I have our squabbles I know he loves me, is there for me, and is interested in continuing to do so. I love the way that I say "I love you" to him and it still feels like the first time. Yes, our relationship is still new, but after 7 months and I still get butterflies in my stomach and swoon when he reaches out to hold me? I don't even think I have words to describe how wonderful that is.
My living arrangement is going well. Things were rocky for a while...I just need to be in a cleaner environment than my roommates. It was affecting my emotional health and I didn't know how to bring it up. But the house got cleaned last night and I felt such a weight lifted from my shoulders. We all ate an AMAZING meal that Mariah cooked and laughed together over Hot Fuzz-which I should have seen in theaters, like everyone had been telling me. It was a relieving night.
I'm gonna go get ready for my day now. I miss you all still and I'm working on finding time and a way to get out to visit people.
I had SO much fun when Audrey came out to visit me, and then the next day when Charles and Ben came. They made me feel so valuable and light. Thanks guys.
I'll try and give the rest of you a call when I'm out your way and we'll do something fun!
Things are good though. I'm working two jobs now-waitressing and personal assisting-which are both going well. I'm hopefully starting my first yoga class this evening. It reminds me of all the times I really should have gone with Rachel. I just didn't have the motivation then, I guess. I missed out on a lot of things over the years because I didn't have the motivation. That's a September resolution I'm working on. I'm going to Holyoke Community College later this month to talk about options and possibly enrolling in the spring semester. We'll see how that goes.
And speaking of seeing how things go that's how I'm feeling about my recent big announcement. I still feel that Billy is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, but I'm not so sure that the time to start that is in 2008. We've been talking about a possible 2009 wedding. There's no rush and I want to make sure it's the right move because I only want to get married once. I want to do it right-from the timing to the ceremony to how to work things out financially. We're doing so well. It's so vital for me to have stable relationships in my life because so often I'm not. And although Billy and I have our squabbles I know he loves me, is there for me, and is interested in continuing to do so. I love the way that I say "I love you" to him and it still feels like the first time. Yes, our relationship is still new, but after 7 months and I still get butterflies in my stomach and swoon when he reaches out to hold me? I don't even think I have words to describe how wonderful that is.
My living arrangement is going well. Things were rocky for a while...I just need to be in a cleaner environment than my roommates. It was affecting my emotional health and I didn't know how to bring it up. But the house got cleaned last night and I felt such a weight lifted from my shoulders. We all ate an AMAZING meal that Mariah cooked and laughed together over Hot Fuzz-which I should have seen in theaters, like everyone had been telling me. It was a relieving night.
I'm gonna go get ready for my day now. I miss you all still and I'm working on finding time and a way to get out to visit people.
I had SO much fun when Audrey came out to visit me, and then the next day when Charles and Ben came. They made me feel so valuable and light. Thanks guys.
I'll try and give the rest of you a call when I'm out your way and we'll do something fun!