kill me

[schwebe17]

ohh yea so today was just wonderful....some black lady hit my car this morning when she decided that it would be a great idea to drive down the shoulder of the road. so when i went to trn onto the turn lane for 295 we hit. oh heres where it gets good...the stupid asshole is trying to say she was in the correct turn lane and i was all the way in the outside lane and i was at fault....yea ok..well see how it goes but seeing how things are going for me lately im sure theyll side with her....bitches..ive got a huge fuckin headache... also someone seemed to find today to be the perfect day to tell me just how worthless i was to him n how much i didnt mater.. so that was great too. fuck this...you're all right my life is pointless.

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit