you're awful. i love you.

[schwann]

To keep myself from going on a tangent about how I'll always be lonely and unhappyish the way my life is going...

(You know it's a horrible day when one of the first things that happens to you is a giant spider crawling down your stomach.)

I guess I'll answer the question thing on the front page.

Call it gym, P.E., recess, or pure hell, most

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[boom]

Despite how things seem to be going for me, I always try to tell myself that things will change. I mean, I learned my lesson and grew from my mistakes. So, why wouldn't I ever get another chance to experience that closeness with someone? You know, and do it right this time? /yadda yadda

While I am indeed a cynical boogerbear, I still try to keep that one positive token. Without it I'd be a blubbering mess. Idk. But honestly, you don't seem like the kind of person destined to be lonely. You're too plusplus awesome.

...P.E. In seventh grade it was terrible because I fucking obese. And I'll never forget that damn "teacher" that pointed me out and used me for motivation for other students by saying "do you want to be like her?! DDD:" Pfft, and then I had to take P.E as a SENIOR... with FRESHMEN. Fortunately, I was a normal weight... but I still sucked at sports. Especially basketball. Especially everything. For some reason the balls were always attracted to my face, and they really got a high from smashing into my motherfucking glasses. :(

holy-- stfu mae

[schwann]

I know, I know. There's just... Something about the way my life is going that just screams of me never having half the experiences most of my friends have had. I'm really going to end up being one of those people that live with their parents their entire life and never experience the world. As great as the move to North Carolina is... That's what it's going to lead to. I want out of here, but I don't know if it will ever happen. So many opportunities for me have been ruined that I just don't have any hope left in me to give.

Having no real life friends around this time of the year is really killer to me.

Teachers can always be so horrible aslkdjkflj. I once had a math teacher who singled me out for making a B on a test after, like, constant Ds and Cs and said that "if even she can get a B, so can you!" YEAH. REALLY. OH GOD, but during senior year was when I was in personal fitness. It was like... A bunch of freshman, some sophomores, and the laziest of lazy seniors that waited until their last year to take it. There were only a couple of us. I guess I was just lucky enough to have sat behind a girl that was actually an anime fan. We used to just... Walk around the gym on gym days and talk about nothing.