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i have basically just spent the entire day in my room. i have sat in my huge chair looking out my window, listening to music, and just listened to the rain and thought about... well. everything.
i thought about everyone and anyone i could think of. i thought about things that have happened. i thought about what i was feeling, or couldnt feel. i thought about these past few days... i swear my head was going to burst a hole and my calm, quiet thoughts were going to leak out.
i tried to rationalize why i am the way i am. it doesnt work.
nothing works. but then again it does. all at the same time.
just like when you dont know what you are feeling. but you are still feeling.
i cant explain. but i know what im talking about.
or do i?
i thought about everyone and anyone i could think of. i thought about things that have happened. i thought about what i was feeling, or couldnt feel. i thought about these past few days... i swear my head was going to burst a hole and my calm, quiet thoughts were going to leak out.
i tried to rationalize why i am the way i am. it doesnt work.
nothing works. but then again it does. all at the same time.
just like when you dont know what you are feeling. but you are still feeling.
i cant explain. but i know what im talking about.
or do i?