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everything with Xander and Danny have been so great but each day that passes I know its one day closer to me leaving and each day with Xander made that harder for me.
as I started to re pack my things I kept the door locked not wanting Danny to come in and try and convince me to stay, it was hard enough already.
mother called my cell and we talked “Ariel, you don't have to do this, you can stay there...we’d understand”
“I don't want to get into this again, I belong in New York with you guys, my family”
“and this boy you met?”
“he doesn't know”
“Ariel, hunny:
“that would just make things difficult, I got to get going, I love you and I'll see you when I get home” with that I hung up and headed out saying goodbye to Oz and headed out with dad for the longest most quietest ride down to the airport, I kissed her cheek softly goodbye then headed in and did everything needed to get to the plane.
I sat and paced and sat more, everything running through my mind, mostly Xander really. then suddenly there was a pair of arms wrapped around me tightly and I turned to see Xander and that made everything harder.
"Don't go..."
I pulled away "I have to Xander, this isn't my home...I'm sorry" I said softly as I looked up to his eyes
"But...Please..."
ran my hand down his cheek softly "this is why I tried to leave without telling you" I said softly and laid my head on his shoulder " I told you before that I was going Xander"
he stepped away from me before turning and walking off slowly and my heart broke as more tears finally fell “Xander!” I called out but the boarding call was calling for last minute people “I...I love you” I said for the first time then turned and headed onto the plane.
when I got home I fell into my moms arms and just laid with her on the couch before going to my room and sulking in the completely darkened room.
I stayed there a few days not eating much more then she brought to the room.
“Ariel, if your so unhappy without that part of your life, we could always move....”
I looked over to her to see if she was serious.
as I started to re pack my things I kept the door locked not wanting Danny to come in and try and convince me to stay, it was hard enough already.
mother called my cell and we talked “Ariel, you don't have to do this, you can stay there...we’d understand”
“I don't want to get into this again, I belong in New York with you guys, my family”
“and this boy you met?”
“he doesn't know”
“Ariel, hunny:
“that would just make things difficult, I got to get going, I love you and I'll see you when I get home” with that I hung up and headed out saying goodbye to Oz and headed out with dad for the longest most quietest ride down to the airport, I kissed her cheek softly goodbye then headed in and did everything needed to get to the plane.
I sat and paced and sat more, everything running through my mind, mostly Xander really. then suddenly there was a pair of arms wrapped around me tightly and I turned to see Xander and that made everything harder.
"Don't go..."
I pulled away "I have to Xander, this isn't my home...I'm sorry" I said softly as I looked up to his eyes
"But...Please..."
ran my hand down his cheek softly "this is why I tried to leave without telling you" I said softly and laid my head on his shoulder " I told you before that I was going Xander"
he stepped away from me before turning and walking off slowly and my heart broke as more tears finally fell “Xander!” I called out but the boarding call was calling for last minute people “I...I love you” I said for the first time then turned and headed onto the plane.
when I got home I fell into my moms arms and just laid with her on the couch before going to my room and sulking in the completely darkened room.
I stayed there a few days not eating much more then she brought to the room.
“Ariel, if your so unhappy without that part of your life, we could always move....”
I looked over to her to see if she was serious.