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I came here with the frame of mind of not letting myself get close to anyone, not to connect knowing all it leads is to heartbreak and complicate things. And I was doing okay, I got friends with Danny but never too close, avoided dad at all costs and stayed low. Then I meet Xander with his complete dorky hotness and he some how reels me in with those eyes and lips of his, that stupid little grin of his….sigh.
We sat in the library together eating Oreos and then started making out and all that slowly led to sex in the basement, and for a virgin god was he good. It was the stupidest thing I ever could have done! I got too close too soon and got his hopes up of me staying in town and now it well be harder for me to go as well but I have to, I don’t belong here.
I want to get close to dad so badly, I just want to talk to him, hug him and know everything about him but I know I cant do that. If I do with him then going back well be heartbreaking and I just cant do that to myself. And with Danny it well be the hardest, I finally found that thing that I have felt I was missing for all these years, finally filled that hole and now its going to be gone again so quickly, we get together so well and I shouldn’t have given us that chance… I belong in New York, with my parents.
This morning I pulled on a pair of tight black leather pants with black leather boots and a small tank that showed my mid drift and belly button, pulled on my coat and headed off to school with Danny, staying quiet the whole time.
When I got there I found Xander at his locker and smiled softly as I went up from behind and licked his neck softly with a smirk.
We sat in the library together eating Oreos and then started making out and all that slowly led to sex in the basement, and for a virgin god was he good. It was the stupidest thing I ever could have done! I got too close too soon and got his hopes up of me staying in town and now it well be harder for me to go as well but I have to, I don’t belong here.
I want to get close to dad so badly, I just want to talk to him, hug him and know everything about him but I know I cant do that. If I do with him then going back well be heartbreaking and I just cant do that to myself. And with Danny it well be the hardest, I finally found that thing that I have felt I was missing for all these years, finally filled that hole and now its going to be gone again so quickly, we get together so well and I shouldn’t have given us that chance… I belong in New York, with my parents.
This morning I pulled on a pair of tight black leather pants with black leather boots and a small tank that showed my mid drift and belly button, pulled on my coat and headed off to school with Danny, staying quiet the whole time.
When I got there I found Xander at his locker and smiled softly as I went up from behind and licked his neck softly with a smirk.