Dec 28, 2005 00:28
i find it funny how one night of my mom and her cousin drunk can change the way i viewed my like since i was 6. espeically concerning my dad. like i knew that time he blamed me... and that he was pissed and the cops were called and we didnt see him for like 2 months cuz my mom put him on a restraining order... but i didnt know that the reason my mom called the cops was because he was screaming that as soon as he got his hands on me he was gonna kick the crap outta me outside he bedroom window so that she could watch. like i knew i wasnt his favorite, it was so CLEAR that amber was. but to go as far as say that cause i took a clock which he had two of?
the sad thing is it didnt really upset me, cause it seems exactly like something he'd say to or about me. it just kinda ruins things when i look back and try to miss him. like i do miss him i cant say i dont.... but like he's fucked me up soooooo much its not even funny, he continues to even though he's dead.
Whatever! today was soooooo fun none the less i was with the girl cousins (some of them, such as issa, shanny, and angie) fuck orange juice, whip cream and vodka DONT MIX!! worse thing i've ever been forced to drink in my lifeee and i love how completely drunk darlene got shanny! *happy merry christmas holiday birthday* and me and issa watching super troopers..... i really love extended family. you guys push me to do the stupid things i'd never even think of doing.... like talking to random people, jumping off new bridges at your trailer, sneeking into the back of a truck and piling on like 8 people, drinking in the tent! LMAO remember that creepy Lincon guy that u guys LEFT ME WITH ON THE DECK AT FUCKING 2 or 3 in the morning! he like hung off me and i just wanted to run away and hide in the big kid tent.. i love u guys with my all
<3 wish i got to talk to you more often... haha i showed ur myspace and that to my cousins, the chick ones at least. wow longgg story with that one. ohh and what made me laugh was the fact that neil said you were cute! hehe
and noww it is 1 ish and i need sleep cuz i have to be up and ready by like 8:30am.
SHOWWWWWWWWW TOMORRROW BITCHES =) *i like that word*
goodnight <3