L&O SVU Fanfiction: In the Ghetto, Chapter 6
So... here's finally the next chapter... Sorry I didn't update earlier but school keeps me busy...
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Title: In the Ghetto
Author: schnullybaby
Pairing: Elliot/Olivia
Spoilers: none
Rating: K+
Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me.
Summary: EO. On her way home, Olivia finds a little girl who has been raped. Unable to find her parents Olivia takes her into her home to be her foster mom. Deals with Self-harm in later chapters! Please read and review: This is my first L&O: SVU FF
Chapter 6
Spoilers for 9x14 "Inconceivable"
December 25, 8am
"Olivia, Liv, wake up. It's Christmas and you have to get up."
"Mmh", was the only thing Olivia said before she turned over to get some more sleep.
The last three days had been really exhausting for her. She wasn't used to being a mom and the tasks it brought with it. She slept on the couch and it was really hard for her. The first two nights she had slept with Lindsay in her bed as Lindsay didn't want to sleep alone. She was afraid of the dark and had lots of nightmares. The more Olivia tried to find out what happened that night to her the more Lindsay closed herself off.
She had called Huang to ask for advice but he just told her she was doing the right thing.
On the third night Lindsay Olivia snuck out of her bedroom after Lindsay fell asleep. And it worked, so Lindsay slept in the bed alone, with the door open to the living room where Olivia slept on the couch.
Yesterday they had loads of fun decorating the tree and it seemed as Lindsay was on the road to recovery. Olivia still had to change the plasters on Lindsay's stitched cuts every day but they were healing nicely.
"OLIVIA!" Lindsay said again. Olivia turned around and yawned. It was useless to try to get some more sleep. It was Christmas and she new that Lindsay wouldn't go to bed again.
"Good morning honey. Merry Christmas, Lindsay."
"Merry Christmas, Olivia. Can I open my presents now?"
"How do you know Santa brought you some?"
"'cause I can see them lying under the tree. Three. And they are wrapped in Christmas paper. Please Olivia," Lindsay said with a quick look to the tree.
"Okay you can open them. You wouldn't stop harassing me if I said no."
And fast as Olivia could look, Lindsay was away from her and near the tree to open her presents.
Her eyes sparkled when she opened the first one. In there she found a CD with the soundtrack of The Lion King. Olivia and Lindsay had watched the movie two days ago and when she glanced at Lindsay she saw that she really liked music.
The next box Lindsay opened contained a Barbie.
"Oh Olivia, thank you so much. Those are the best Christmas presents I've ever received."
The last one Lindsay opened contained a teddy bear.
Lindsay took the bear out and ran over to Olivia.
"Thank you so much for bringing me Charlie back Olivia. Thanks." Both were lying on the couch now, hugging each other.
"That's fine honey, I'm glad you like them all."
"Yeah, a lot. Especially now that I have Charlie back," Lindsay said with a smile.
Lindsay had talked loads about her Charlie in recent days and so Olivia had called Elliot to find out what teddy bear she needed. She gave him an exact description of the bear, everything Lindsay had told her, and Elliot knew at once what she wanted. The twins had the same and so he bought one for Lindsay. Olivia was glad everything had worked out so well and that Lindsay didn't see she had a completely new bear instead of her real Charlie.
"What do you think about making some breakfast now and going then for a walk?"
"Yeah, that sounds okay. Is it okay if I go get dressed first?"
"Yeah that's fine. I have to get dressed myself as well and then make breakfast."
While preparing breakfast Olivia remembered that she only had two days left with Lindsay. Although everyone from her team were still searching to find information about her or to find a relative they hadn't succeeded.
She already thought about other things to do so they wouldn't take Lindsay from her but couldn't find any good solutions. She didn't want her to go into a foster home. She was weak and she was sure Lindsay wouldn't feel safe there. But she couldn't keep her as she had a job and wasn't qualified to be a mom. She had been turned down at an adoption agency in the past and knew that would also count against her.
"OLIVIIIIIAAAAAA, help me", came a scream from the bedroom. Olivia ran to the bedroom, wondering what on earth had happened.
"Honey, what's going on?" she asked Lindsay when she saw her sitting on the bed, looking up with wide open eyes at the wardrobe.
"There… there's a spider… in your wardrobe… a big huge black spider. Kill it, please."
"That's all? You're screaming because of a spider?"
"Yes. Please get rid of it. I don't like them"
Olivia went over to the wardrobe and opened the door. On one of her shirts was sitting a very little black spider. Olivia took the spider in her hand, went over to the window, she opened it and threw the spider out of it.
"What if she's crawling up the wall and comes again into my room?"
"It won't. I threw it out of the window and now it's going into the flat of our neighbours, okay?"
"Yes. But please stay with me while I dress. What if her spider babies are sitting under the other shirts?"
"Okay but please hurry up."
Ten minutes later Lindsay was dressed with Olivia's help and both had breakfast.
After breakfast they went to Battery Park. They stayed there for two hours, then Lindsay became again hungry.
"Liv, I'm hungry."
"Sweetie, we just had breakfast. It's not lunch time yet."
"But I'm really, really hungry. And I have to go pee."
"Oh Lindsay…" With a smile on her face Olivia took Lindsay in her arms and they went to the next subway station.
Twenty minutes later they arrived at the subway station near Olivia's apartment.
When they came out of the underground a "Wendy's" was just on the opposite of the street.
"What do you think of going to Wendy's?"
"I love that idea", Lindsay said with a smile.
When they entered it, Olivia went first with Lindsay to the bathroom as Lindsay didn't want to go alone. After that they ordered some foot and sat down in a quiet corner to eat.
"What do you wanna do next?"
"I don't know. Is there a playground near your flat?"
"Yes, if I remember right there should be one a block away from my apartment. Do you wanna go there after lunch?"
"Yes, and you have to push me while I'm sitting on the swing…"
"Are you sure I'll do this?"
"Of course."
After a short walk they reached the playground.
Time flew by and when Olivia looked the next time on her watch is was already 3:30pm.
"Liiiindsssayyy", Olivia shouted over the whole playground. "Time to go home."
"No, Livia, I don't wanna go home already."
"But it is very cold and I think it's too cold to stay any longer outside. I think we should go home now, I'll make a hot chocolate and we can play with your new Barbie if you want."
"Ooookay. But tomorrow we come here again, please, promise it."
"Okay, tomorrow we'll come here again. I promise."
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Christmas Day had been a long and tiring one for them both and by nine Lindsay was sound asleep in bed and Olivia was curled up on the sofa ready to make two important phone calls. She wanted to ring the boss and Elliot to talk to them about Lindsay. Lindsay was already in bed and Olivia had checked twice to make sure she was sleeping. They had a wonderful day. When they came back in the afternoon they had their hot chocolate and played till the late afternoon with Lindsay's Barbie and Olivia's dolls. Then Olivia had made dinner and they had a pillow fight so Lindsay was very tired. She smiled when she thought back of that day.
She sat onto the couch in the living room and dialled Don's number. After it had rung three times, he picked up.
"Cragen."
"Don, it's me, Olivia. We need to talk. It's about Lindsay."
"Did something happen to her?"
"No she's fine. She's still staying with me. We had a nice Christmas. It's more about… I don't know Don, it's hard to explain. I know you gave me the deadline to take her to the foster home but I think I can't do it. I've gotten close to her and she trusts me and I don't know… I feel responsible for her. Please don't take her away from me. I'll call ACS Thursday and do what I have to do to officially become a foster mother for her. Please, Don."
"Liv, I can't say yes to that. You know we already talked about it, you can't be mom to all victims we find who don't have a family. That's impossible. And I'm also thinking ACS will turn you down. You work long and unusual hours, and Lindsay needs to go to school."
"Please Don. We went on a nice walk today and we had so much fun. I know they turned me down when I applied to adopt but it doesn't mean that I'm not a good foster mom. I would do desk duty voluntarily and you know how much I hate it. So I could do all the background checks in our cases and still work on Lindsay's case. And if I have to work longer I could arrange a Nanny or an Au Pair to work in the afternoons at home who could pick her up from school. If need to I'll move into a bigger apartment. Don, for the first time in my life I think I can do something really important, please don't push me."
"I think we should talk about this the day after tomorrow in my office. Talk to Elliot, see what he thinks about it. He has been your partner for over nine years now and I think he'd be good to talk to about all this. Please remember it's a lot of responsibility taking care of a kid. If they turn you down at ACS, please don't be too disappointed or do anything stupid. Sometimes life goes a way other than we want. What about 9 o'clock on December 27th in my office?"
"That sounds fine. Thanks for helping me Don. I know it's not easy and that you told me it's not the best thing to do but at least let me try it. If it goes wrong then I know I should have listened to you. But Lindsay deserves something really special in her childhood."
"I know Olivia. See you then soon. Have a nice evening!"
"You too Don, bye."
Both rang off and Olivia had a big smile on her face. She knew she could persuade him to say yes. She also knew the next time wouldn't be easy for all of them but they would manage it.
She went to check on Lindsay again, she was still asleep. She closed the door a little more so that she wouldn't wake up from her talking on the phone.
Then she sat down on the couch again to dial Elliot's number. He needed a little bit longer then Don to pick up, but after it had rung nine times she heard his voice.
"Stabler. Who's disturbing me so late?"
"Hey El, it's me Liv. We need to talk."
"Hi Liv. What's going on?"
"Firstly, Merry Christmas. I hope you had nice day with your family. And um…secondly, we need to talk about Lindsay. I just called Don to talk with him about what's going on and he told me I should talk to you as well."
"Okay, then start Liv. Can't wait for the important news."
"El, on Thursday I'm going to ACS to apply to be her foster mother. I won't give Lindsay back. I can't do that. I feel responsible for her and if she goes now I would feel guilty if anything happens to her again. I know that I work too much, that I'm a single and that maybe my apartment is not big enough with her here but I'm sure we'll find a solution."
Elliot tried to say something but Olivia didn't stop talking.
"No you don't need to say anything. I know that they turned me down when I applied for adoption but I this is something completely different. And I will change everything and anything that's needed if they take me into the program. That's the reason I wanted to talk to you, I'm thinking of doing desk duty for the next few weeks when it is needed. And you know how much I hate desk duty. So I could work in the morning while Lindsay is at school and in the afternoon I could pick her up from school and be there for her. And if we really need to work longer on a case then I'll also look for a Nanny or an Au Pair who can take care of her while I'm away. I'm sure it will work. And maybe I could also take a few days off when it is needed. Please say yes."
"Liv, I need to think about it. You know it won't be easy. I have five children I know what I'm talking about. I don't think that they'll take you into the program and if they don't you'll be really disappointed. You already had problems when you got the call that they turned you down for adoption. I don't think it's good if the same thing happens again. It happened for a reason, please remember that."
"I know Elliot but as I also told Don, don't say no right now. I know what I'm doing and if it goes wrong it's something I learned from."
"You know Liv, it's Christmas and I'm not in the mood to fight with you right now. Do what you think you need to do and what the best is for you. I think as soon as things are less hectic I'll come over to your place and we can talk about it again."
"Thanks Elliot, for your help so far. Have a nice evening, okay? We'll talk later."
"Yeah, okay. The same to you, Liv. Bye."
"Bye, El."
With that both rang off and Olivia lay down on her couch. She was really tired and the phone calls didn't have the outcome she wanted them to have but still she was content.
It didn't take long until she fell asleep, having a long and dreamless sleep.
tbc.
Keep reviewing!! I won't update if I don't get any reviews :P
Title: In the Ghetto
Author: schnullybaby
Pairing: Elliot/Olivia
Spoilers: none
Rating: K+
Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me.
Summary: EO. On her way home, Olivia finds a little girl who has been raped. Unable to find her parents Olivia takes her into her home to be her foster mom. Deals with Self-harm in later chapters! Please read and review: This is my first L&O: SVU FF
Chapter 6
Spoilers for 9x14 "Inconceivable"
December 25, 8am
"Olivia, Liv, wake up. It's Christmas and you have to get up."
"Mmh", was the only thing Olivia said before she turned over to get some more sleep.
The last three days had been really exhausting for her. She wasn't used to being a mom and the tasks it brought with it. She slept on the couch and it was really hard for her. The first two nights she had slept with Lindsay in her bed as Lindsay didn't want to sleep alone. She was afraid of the dark and had lots of nightmares. The more Olivia tried to find out what happened that night to her the more Lindsay closed herself off.
She had called Huang to ask for advice but he just told her she was doing the right thing.
On the third night Lindsay Olivia snuck out of her bedroom after Lindsay fell asleep. And it worked, so Lindsay slept in the bed alone, with the door open to the living room where Olivia slept on the couch.
Yesterday they had loads of fun decorating the tree and it seemed as Lindsay was on the road to recovery. Olivia still had to change the plasters on Lindsay's stitched cuts every day but they were healing nicely.
"OLIVIA!" Lindsay said again. Olivia turned around and yawned. It was useless to try to get some more sleep. It was Christmas and she new that Lindsay wouldn't go to bed again.
"Good morning honey. Merry Christmas, Lindsay."
"Merry Christmas, Olivia. Can I open my presents now?"
"How do you know Santa brought you some?"
"'cause I can see them lying under the tree. Three. And they are wrapped in Christmas paper. Please Olivia," Lindsay said with a quick look to the tree.
"Okay you can open them. You wouldn't stop harassing me if I said no."
And fast as Olivia could look, Lindsay was away from her and near the tree to open her presents.
Her eyes sparkled when she opened the first one. In there she found a CD with the soundtrack of The Lion King. Olivia and Lindsay had watched the movie two days ago and when she glanced at Lindsay she saw that she really liked music.
The next box Lindsay opened contained a Barbie.
"Oh Olivia, thank you so much. Those are the best Christmas presents I've ever received."
The last one Lindsay opened contained a teddy bear.
Lindsay took the bear out and ran over to Olivia.
"Thank you so much for bringing me Charlie back Olivia. Thanks." Both were lying on the couch now, hugging each other.
"That's fine honey, I'm glad you like them all."
"Yeah, a lot. Especially now that I have Charlie back," Lindsay said with a smile.
Lindsay had talked loads about her Charlie in recent days and so Olivia had called Elliot to find out what teddy bear she needed. She gave him an exact description of the bear, everything Lindsay had told her, and Elliot knew at once what she wanted. The twins had the same and so he bought one for Lindsay. Olivia was glad everything had worked out so well and that Lindsay didn't see she had a completely new bear instead of her real Charlie.
"What do you think about making some breakfast now and going then for a walk?"
"Yeah, that sounds okay. Is it okay if I go get dressed first?"
"Yeah that's fine. I have to get dressed myself as well and then make breakfast."
While preparing breakfast Olivia remembered that she only had two days left with Lindsay. Although everyone from her team were still searching to find information about her or to find a relative they hadn't succeeded.
She already thought about other things to do so they wouldn't take Lindsay from her but couldn't find any good solutions. She didn't want her to go into a foster home. She was weak and she was sure Lindsay wouldn't feel safe there. But she couldn't keep her as she had a job and wasn't qualified to be a mom. She had been turned down at an adoption agency in the past and knew that would also count against her.
"OLIVIIIIIAAAAAA, help me", came a scream from the bedroom. Olivia ran to the bedroom, wondering what on earth had happened.
"Honey, what's going on?" she asked Lindsay when she saw her sitting on the bed, looking up with wide open eyes at the wardrobe.
"There… there's a spider… in your wardrobe… a big huge black spider. Kill it, please."
"That's all? You're screaming because of a spider?"
"Yes. Please get rid of it. I don't like them"
Olivia went over to the wardrobe and opened the door. On one of her shirts was sitting a very little black spider. Olivia took the spider in her hand, went over to the window, she opened it and threw the spider out of it.
"What if she's crawling up the wall and comes again into my room?"
"It won't. I threw it out of the window and now it's going into the flat of our neighbours, okay?"
"Yes. But please stay with me while I dress. What if her spider babies are sitting under the other shirts?"
"Okay but please hurry up."
Ten minutes later Lindsay was dressed with Olivia's help and both had breakfast.
After breakfast they went to Battery Park. They stayed there for two hours, then Lindsay became again hungry.
"Liv, I'm hungry."
"Sweetie, we just had breakfast. It's not lunch time yet."
"But I'm really, really hungry. And I have to go pee."
"Oh Lindsay…" With a smile on her face Olivia took Lindsay in her arms and they went to the next subway station.
Twenty minutes later they arrived at the subway station near Olivia's apartment.
When they came out of the underground a "Wendy's" was just on the opposite of the street.
"What do you think of going to Wendy's?"
"I love that idea", Lindsay said with a smile.
When they entered it, Olivia went first with Lindsay to the bathroom as Lindsay didn't want to go alone. After that they ordered some foot and sat down in a quiet corner to eat.
"What do you wanna do next?"
"I don't know. Is there a playground near your flat?"
"Yes, if I remember right there should be one a block away from my apartment. Do you wanna go there after lunch?"
"Yes, and you have to push me while I'm sitting on the swing…"
"Are you sure I'll do this?"
"Of course."
After a short walk they reached the playground.
Time flew by and when Olivia looked the next time on her watch is was already 3:30pm.
"Liiiindsssayyy", Olivia shouted over the whole playground. "Time to go home."
"No, Livia, I don't wanna go home already."
"But it is very cold and I think it's too cold to stay any longer outside. I think we should go home now, I'll make a hot chocolate and we can play with your new Barbie if you want."
"Ooookay. But tomorrow we come here again, please, promise it."
"Okay, tomorrow we'll come here again. I promise."
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Christmas Day had been a long and tiring one for them both and by nine Lindsay was sound asleep in bed and Olivia was curled up on the sofa ready to make two important phone calls. She wanted to ring the boss and Elliot to talk to them about Lindsay. Lindsay was already in bed and Olivia had checked twice to make sure she was sleeping. They had a wonderful day. When they came back in the afternoon they had their hot chocolate and played till the late afternoon with Lindsay's Barbie and Olivia's dolls. Then Olivia had made dinner and they had a pillow fight so Lindsay was very tired. She smiled when she thought back of that day.
She sat onto the couch in the living room and dialled Don's number. After it had rung three times, he picked up.
"Cragen."
"Don, it's me, Olivia. We need to talk. It's about Lindsay."
"Did something happen to her?"
"No she's fine. She's still staying with me. We had a nice Christmas. It's more about… I don't know Don, it's hard to explain. I know you gave me the deadline to take her to the foster home but I think I can't do it. I've gotten close to her and she trusts me and I don't know… I feel responsible for her. Please don't take her away from me. I'll call ACS Thursday and do what I have to do to officially become a foster mother for her. Please, Don."
"Liv, I can't say yes to that. You know we already talked about it, you can't be mom to all victims we find who don't have a family. That's impossible. And I'm also thinking ACS will turn you down. You work long and unusual hours, and Lindsay needs to go to school."
"Please Don. We went on a nice walk today and we had so much fun. I know they turned me down when I applied to adopt but it doesn't mean that I'm not a good foster mom. I would do desk duty voluntarily and you know how much I hate it. So I could do all the background checks in our cases and still work on Lindsay's case. And if I have to work longer I could arrange a Nanny or an Au Pair to work in the afternoons at home who could pick her up from school. If need to I'll move into a bigger apartment. Don, for the first time in my life I think I can do something really important, please don't push me."
"I think we should talk about this the day after tomorrow in my office. Talk to Elliot, see what he thinks about it. He has been your partner for over nine years now and I think he'd be good to talk to about all this. Please remember it's a lot of responsibility taking care of a kid. If they turn you down at ACS, please don't be too disappointed or do anything stupid. Sometimes life goes a way other than we want. What about 9 o'clock on December 27th in my office?"
"That sounds fine. Thanks for helping me Don. I know it's not easy and that you told me it's not the best thing to do but at least let me try it. If it goes wrong then I know I should have listened to you. But Lindsay deserves something really special in her childhood."
"I know Olivia. See you then soon. Have a nice evening!"
"You too Don, bye."
Both rang off and Olivia had a big smile on her face. She knew she could persuade him to say yes. She also knew the next time wouldn't be easy for all of them but they would manage it.
She went to check on Lindsay again, she was still asleep. She closed the door a little more so that she wouldn't wake up from her talking on the phone.
Then she sat down on the couch again to dial Elliot's number. He needed a little bit longer then Don to pick up, but after it had rung nine times she heard his voice.
"Stabler. Who's disturbing me so late?"
"Hey El, it's me Liv. We need to talk."
"Hi Liv. What's going on?"
"Firstly, Merry Christmas. I hope you had nice day with your family. And um…secondly, we need to talk about Lindsay. I just called Don to talk with him about what's going on and he told me I should talk to you as well."
"Okay, then start Liv. Can't wait for the important news."
"El, on Thursday I'm going to ACS to apply to be her foster mother. I won't give Lindsay back. I can't do that. I feel responsible for her and if she goes now I would feel guilty if anything happens to her again. I know that I work too much, that I'm a single and that maybe my apartment is not big enough with her here but I'm sure we'll find a solution."
Elliot tried to say something but Olivia didn't stop talking.
"No you don't need to say anything. I know that they turned me down when I applied for adoption but I this is something completely different. And I will change everything and anything that's needed if they take me into the program. That's the reason I wanted to talk to you, I'm thinking of doing desk duty for the next few weeks when it is needed. And you know how much I hate desk duty. So I could work in the morning while Lindsay is at school and in the afternoon I could pick her up from school and be there for her. And if we really need to work longer on a case then I'll also look for a Nanny or an Au Pair who can take care of her while I'm away. I'm sure it will work. And maybe I could also take a few days off when it is needed. Please say yes."
"Liv, I need to think about it. You know it won't be easy. I have five children I know what I'm talking about. I don't think that they'll take you into the program and if they don't you'll be really disappointed. You already had problems when you got the call that they turned you down for adoption. I don't think it's good if the same thing happens again. It happened for a reason, please remember that."
"I know Elliot but as I also told Don, don't say no right now. I know what I'm doing and if it goes wrong it's something I learned from."
"You know Liv, it's Christmas and I'm not in the mood to fight with you right now. Do what you think you need to do and what the best is for you. I think as soon as things are less hectic I'll come over to your place and we can talk about it again."
"Thanks Elliot, for your help so far. Have a nice evening, okay? We'll talk later."
"Yeah, okay. The same to you, Liv. Bye."
"Bye, El."
With that both rang off and Olivia lay down on her couch. She was really tired and the phone calls didn't have the outcome she wanted them to have but still she was content.
It didn't take long until she fell asleep, having a long and dreamless sleep.
tbc.