Disappointment.
Tofu stir-fry didn't happen.
Heather forgot and got called in to work.
So we're doing it Monday, I suppose.
I keep finding myself more and more able to handle the long-distance thing, but more and more dissatisfied with how things are going. I'm tired of looking forward to things that don't happen. I'm tired of being annoyed all the time.
I'll spare you all the relationship nonsense. Read it if you want.
I seem to have the kind of timing where every time I say something, something funny happens on tv/in the game/movie/whatever and I'm not being listened to. I'm getting to the point of giving up on talking.
Statistics I like. Thinking of people as numbers, for the most part I can handle. But I really don't want to hear about them individually. No, of course I don't want to meet them. You should realize how insecure I am about this.
I don't like to think that I was just at the right place at the right time with you. Or that someone prettier with a bit more in common could easily take my place. But some of the things you say make it sound so damn possible.
We talk about things, and you tell me you'll keep your word. You'll try. Whatever. If you don't really want to change, you won't. But I'll keep trying, hopefully something will work.
I'm tired of feeling like it's troublesome for you to talk to me, or at school to simply hang out with me. In all honesty, I think you're a bit selfish...
Although, what you said today does kind of put things into perspective for me.
Y'know, you said we get along really well... I'm wondering if it's just because I have a high tolerance for doing what other people want/not letting things bother me easily/going out of my way for others or if we do actually get along well. I think I'll always be doubtful.
I give up for now. My anger's gone for the moment, and now I'm just tired and disappointed. I was just gonna write this all down and burn it, but I'd rather put it somewhere where there's an off-chance you'll see it. (Although, I'm almost positive you don't check this anymore...) It needed to be said. And should you bring it up, well, I'll try to stand up for myself, 'cause this needs to be said.
I'm going to sleep. I've fucking had it with today and I sincerely hope tomorrow will be better..
Although it is Emma's birthday and in her opinion that gives her every right to be more of a bratty bitch than usual.
On the brighter side:
I finished my puzzle.
Heather forgot and got called in to work.
So we're doing it Monday, I suppose.
I keep finding myself more and more able to handle the long-distance thing, but more and more dissatisfied with how things are going. I'm tired of looking forward to things that don't happen. I'm tired of being annoyed all the time.
I'll spare you all the relationship nonsense. Read it if you want.
I seem to have the kind of timing where every time I say something, something funny happens on tv/in the game/movie/whatever and I'm not being listened to. I'm getting to the point of giving up on talking.
Statistics I like. Thinking of people as numbers, for the most part I can handle. But I really don't want to hear about them individually. No, of course I don't want to meet them. You should realize how insecure I am about this.
I don't like to think that I was just at the right place at the right time with you. Or that someone prettier with a bit more in common could easily take my place. But some of the things you say make it sound so damn possible.
We talk about things, and you tell me you'll keep your word. You'll try. Whatever. If you don't really want to change, you won't. But I'll keep trying, hopefully something will work.
I'm tired of feeling like it's troublesome for you to talk to me, or at school to simply hang out with me. In all honesty, I think you're a bit selfish...
Although, what you said today does kind of put things into perspective for me.
Y'know, you said we get along really well... I'm wondering if it's just because I have a high tolerance for doing what other people want/not letting things bother me easily/going out of my way for others or if we do actually get along well. I think I'll always be doubtful.
I give up for now. My anger's gone for the moment, and now I'm just tired and disappointed. I was just gonna write this all down and burn it, but I'd rather put it somewhere where there's an off-chance you'll see it. (Although, I'm almost positive you don't check this anymore...) It needed to be said. And should you bring it up, well, I'll try to stand up for myself, 'cause this needs to be said.
I'm going to sleep. I've fucking had it with today and I sincerely hope tomorrow will be better..
Although it is Emma's birthday and in her opinion that gives her every right to be more of a bratty bitch than usual.
On the brighter side:
I finished my puzzle.