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this past Saturday was the culmination of all my hard work and practicing since I was 5 years old.
16 years of my life were dedicated to the game of soccer.
(that's 16 out of 21)
we played Concordia for our first conference tournament game and for my last college soccer game ever.
it hasn't fully set in that my college soccer career is over.
i'm so depressed.
i have not been able to sleep well cuz i keep thinking about it and reliving the game in my head.
i can see everything as clear as day.
i'm even reliving memories from years past.
i know i can keep playing in other leagues, both indoor and outdoor.
i plan on playing until my body fails me.
but it just won't be the same.
i liked the daily practices... and being with my teammates every day... and working my butt off.
i love the competition and the fact that every game mattered.
in leagues, it's not as serious cuz you don't have a conference record and you don't practice outside of games and you don't have the closeness with your teammates.
i suppose one good thing is that i can FINALLY let my body try to heal.
(Ben, i know you're glad to hear that.)
i'm so broken...
my body (especially my legs... and back) couldn't take much more without a break.
and yes, i know this will cause future problems when i'm 40 years old, but it was all worth it to me.
i'm just proud of myself because my goal was to play my heart out and leave it all on the field so i wouldn't have any regrets...
and i did!
i played soooooo hard!
i played as well as i knew i could all along.
(my mom and my friends can agree to that.)
i did exactly what i wanted to do.
for 16 years i gave everything i had to soccer.
so with that, i take my final bow and walk off the field.
16 years of my life were dedicated to the game of soccer.
(that's 16 out of 21)
we played Concordia for our first conference tournament game and for my last college soccer game ever.
it hasn't fully set in that my college soccer career is over.
i'm so depressed.
i have not been able to sleep well cuz i keep thinking about it and reliving the game in my head.
i can see everything as clear as day.
i'm even reliving memories from years past.
i know i can keep playing in other leagues, both indoor and outdoor.
i plan on playing until my body fails me.
but it just won't be the same.
i liked the daily practices... and being with my teammates every day... and working my butt off.
i love the competition and the fact that every game mattered.
in leagues, it's not as serious cuz you don't have a conference record and you don't practice outside of games and you don't have the closeness with your teammates.
i suppose one good thing is that i can FINALLY let my body try to heal.
(Ben, i know you're glad to hear that.)
i'm so broken...
my body (especially my legs... and back) couldn't take much more without a break.
and yes, i know this will cause future problems when i'm 40 years old, but it was all worth it to me.
i'm just proud of myself because my goal was to play my heart out and leave it all on the field so i wouldn't have any regrets...
and i did!
i played soooooo hard!
i played as well as i knew i could all along.
(my mom and my friends can agree to that.)
i did exactly what i wanted to do.
for 16 years i gave everything i had to soccer.
so with that, i take my final bow and walk off the field.