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I finished the Da Vinci Code tonight, and I noticed that the closer I got to the end, the more confusing and rushed the book got. I'm just glad I'm finally done with it so I can get on with my life. That book has been a big distraction for me lately. Even more than the internet.
I was just thinking that maybe I'll go for a walk around Britt David Park tomorrow. I went with my mom and brother a few days ago, and I actually felt better when it was over with. Sadly, I'm starting to realize that sitting on my ass all day is taking a toll on me. And my mom has been complaining about my lethargic behavior since who knows when...maybe it wouldn't hurt to get out and walk sometimes, or something. Anywhere but this neighborhood.
And....I turned in my letter of resignation at work today too. I was going to give it to my head manager personally, but he was in a meeting. Someone who works behind the front desk said she would make sure he got it. I really hope that things improve for me after I'm done working there. With any luck, maybe my mood will improve. Speaking of which, I've been confused (2nd time I used that word in this entry) as to whether or not I should go into an artistic career. Sure, it's easy to say "It would be awesome to work for Marvel or some other big-wig company!!!111" but it's so hard when I get right down to the bare bones of it all and ask with my heart, whether or not that kind of career is for me. Even the less glamorous job of a graphic artist. More often this year, I've felt more intimidated than excited about doing new art projects. It's as though I feel like I have so much to live up to, that I have to waste so much time thinking up a relatively interesting, original idea for a project, and then I over-analyze all the work I do on it to be sure that I don't screw up. It all wastes so much time....
I'm sorry to subject my friends to this drivel, but you know how it is. LiveJournal is just a way to get all this crap out of my head, whether anyone reads it or not.
I still have Calculus homework to do before the night's over.
I was just thinking that maybe I'll go for a walk around Britt David Park tomorrow. I went with my mom and brother a few days ago, and I actually felt better when it was over with. Sadly, I'm starting to realize that sitting on my ass all day is taking a toll on me. And my mom has been complaining about my lethargic behavior since who knows when...maybe it wouldn't hurt to get out and walk sometimes, or something. Anywhere but this neighborhood.
And....I turned in my letter of resignation at work today too. I was going to give it to my head manager personally, but he was in a meeting. Someone who works behind the front desk said she would make sure he got it. I really hope that things improve for me after I'm done working there. With any luck, maybe my mood will improve. Speaking of which, I've been confused (2nd time I used that word in this entry) as to whether or not I should go into an artistic career. Sure, it's easy to say "It would be awesome to work for Marvel or some other big-wig company!!!111" but it's so hard when I get right down to the bare bones of it all and ask with my heart, whether or not that kind of career is for me. Even the less glamorous job of a graphic artist. More often this year, I've felt more intimidated than excited about doing new art projects. It's as though I feel like I have so much to live up to, that I have to waste so much time thinking up a relatively interesting, original idea for a project, and then I over-analyze all the work I do on it to be sure that I don't screw up. It all wastes so much time....
I'm sorry to subject my friends to this drivel, but you know how it is. LiveJournal is just a way to get all this crap out of my head, whether anyone reads it or not.
I still have Calculus homework to do before the night's over.