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I'm not in love, but I like talking about it. I like dreaming about it. Pretending it will happen.
I like seeing people in love. Because when all goes wrong they know they still have the person they love. Love is just like a drug. We depend on it. We're so dependent on it. But love defines life. Life with out love is considered unhealthy. But your life with love is considered happiness. Once your in love everything will be perfect. You'll magically be happy. And all your problems with go away. All your tears will be wipped away.
I really just want love in my life. I really want some one to dance with. I want to feel safe in some one's arms. Like they can fight away all my fears. I want my eyes too glow and my smile to shine.
Life always seems so lonely now in days. Like I'm running out of things to smile for. I'm running out of tears to cry. I'm running out of energy.
Today I thought, maybe this was it. Maybe it was finally me. Maybe just this once, the stars made my wishes come true. But I'm just the friend, as always. Just the friend you tell about that girl. But I've never been that girl. I've never been the girl who had to worry about which date she was going to bring. Or what to get this guy for his birthday. I've never had to worry about being at a loss of words. I've never had to worry about what to wear just to go the movies.
I want to.
I want to be that girl.
Just maybe, just this one time, I could be the one.
I felt so stupid for thinking it could be me. But I was hoping. Hoping maybe this time was it. This was the last time I had to hope. I had to wish. But the stars are still waiting for me to wish an unreachable dream.
I let people in. I let them know about me. I listen to them. I help them. And they know me too well. They think of me as their friend. Just thier friend. Well I let them in and I let them know and I listen because I want to be more than their friend. I want to love them. And I want them to love me.
I guess I'll have to wait a little bit longer. I'll do what it takes. Whatever it take. I'll wait as long as I have to.
But I won't be waiting for you. Not for ever at least.
Everything will be okay in the end, and if its not, its not the end..
"Everything will never be okay, there will always some part of me in pain"
Every one condricts themselves and others. I never know what to believe anymore.
All I know is that there is a God. And I'll fall in love one day.
And dreams are dreams.
And wishes don't come true.
But I won't die alone...
Jess
I like seeing people in love. Because when all goes wrong they know they still have the person they love. Love is just like a drug. We depend on it. We're so dependent on it. But love defines life. Life with out love is considered unhealthy. But your life with love is considered happiness. Once your in love everything will be perfect. You'll magically be happy. And all your problems with go away. All your tears will be wipped away.
I really just want love in my life. I really want some one to dance with. I want to feel safe in some one's arms. Like they can fight away all my fears. I want my eyes too glow and my smile to shine.
Life always seems so lonely now in days. Like I'm running out of things to smile for. I'm running out of tears to cry. I'm running out of energy.
Today I thought, maybe this was it. Maybe it was finally me. Maybe just this once, the stars made my wishes come true. But I'm just the friend, as always. Just the friend you tell about that girl. But I've never been that girl. I've never been the girl who had to worry about which date she was going to bring. Or what to get this guy for his birthday. I've never had to worry about being at a loss of words. I've never had to worry about what to wear just to go the movies.
I want to.
I want to be that girl.
Just maybe, just this one time, I could be the one.
I felt so stupid for thinking it could be me. But I was hoping. Hoping maybe this time was it. This was the last time I had to hope. I had to wish. But the stars are still waiting for me to wish an unreachable dream.
I let people in. I let them know about me. I listen to them. I help them. And they know me too well. They think of me as their friend. Just thier friend. Well I let them in and I let them know and I listen because I want to be more than their friend. I want to love them. And I want them to love me.
I guess I'll have to wait a little bit longer. I'll do what it takes. Whatever it take. I'll wait as long as I have to.
But I won't be waiting for you. Not for ever at least.
Everything will be okay in the end, and if its not, its not the end..
"Everything will never be okay, there will always some part of me in pain"
Every one condricts themselves and others. I never know what to believe anymore.
All I know is that there is a God. And I'll fall in love one day.
And dreams are dreams.
And wishes don't come true.
But I won't die alone...
Jess