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Sometimes I just hate my bitch of a mother. She is so selfish. She only thinks about how things make her feel and fuck you if you feel differently about it. I can't believe that I agreed to take care of her cat this week when it is totally 40 miles round trip out of my way and I am already working like a slave, so I have to spend 2 hours of the little time that I am away from this place driving up to feed my mom's cat. Like she couldn't get one of her neighbors to open the god damn door and pour some food in the bowl. 5 minutes tops out of their day. No, instead she has to give me a fucking huge guilt trip and force me into submission, just like every other thing that she ever wants.
Then I ask her for one little favor: Can my best friend Ryan, who's car broke down and has no transportation until he can scrounge up the cash for some other mode of getting to and from work than his feet, borrow Shannon's car since she is 3000 miles away and it is just sitting there collecting rust while she is gone?
No! Of course not! That would be doing something to help me, and my friend out! Why should I ever expect her to do something like that? "We can't just lend him a car! We don't ask you to lend your car to our friends!" Jesus! It isn't your fucking car! It is sitting there! If I had a car sitting around, of course I would let someone use it! Shit! Its not like I asked her to go without a car!
I wish that I had some money so I could pay her back for helping me buy my condo. Then I would never have to feel guilty like I owe her something ever again. I also wish that I had as little value in how other people perceive me as she does, then I would just tell her to fuck right off the next time she guilt trips me into doing insane things for her.
I totally want to beat her head in right now. Good thing she is in Florida living it up while I rage about feeding her cat, then having to come back to work for another 5 hours when I am done...
Then I ask her for one little favor: Can my best friend Ryan, who's car broke down and has no transportation until he can scrounge up the cash for some other mode of getting to and from work than his feet, borrow Shannon's car since she is 3000 miles away and it is just sitting there collecting rust while she is gone?
No! Of course not! That would be doing something to help me, and my friend out! Why should I ever expect her to do something like that? "We can't just lend him a car! We don't ask you to lend your car to our friends!" Jesus! It isn't your fucking car! It is sitting there! If I had a car sitting around, of course I would let someone use it! Shit! Its not like I asked her to go without a car!
I wish that I had some money so I could pay her back for helping me buy my condo. Then I would never have to feel guilty like I owe her something ever again. I also wish that I had as little value in how other people perceive me as she does, then I would just tell her to fuck right off the next time she guilt trips me into doing insane things for her.
I totally want to beat her head in right now. Good thing she is in Florida living it up while I rage about feeding her cat, then having to come back to work for another 5 hours when I am done...