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I had a meeting with my mentor at work today about the whole situation with my boss and current job. He is wonderful, my mentor. But I left so conflicted. He wants me to give it another shot to get my boss(es) on board with my vision for what I wanted to do with this rotation. I'm not even sure I want my current rotation anymore. My mentor and his group (who I have worked with before) have an opening for me, if I want it. It sounds like an amazing opportunity, something I'd like, something I'd be good at. But more than that, I *love* this group of people. I walked in their building today and they *lit up* to see me. I haven't felt so needed, so wanted at work in a really long time.
I don't want to be a quitter. But my gut really says "go home" to this other group.
I don't know what to do.
That's a lie. I know what to do. I have to go with my gut. But I'm afraid. Of pissing somebody off. Of looking like a quitter. Of not liking this new job anyway because the "grass is always greener." I'm just afraid.
*sigh*
I remember when I liked going to work.
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I went to Whole Foods for some emotional eating. I figure emotional eating can be justified if it's good for you, but it's still a splurge because it's expensive. "Expensive" is almost as good as "fattening." So - cioppino from the seafood soup bar and tofu saag, veggie dal, and chicken korma from the hot food bar. That, along with some wise advice from the Roomie and yesterday's ANTM are making it slowly better.
I don't want to be a quitter. But my gut really says "go home" to this other group.
I don't know what to do.
That's a lie. I know what to do. I have to go with my gut. But I'm afraid. Of pissing somebody off. Of looking like a quitter. Of not liking this new job anyway because the "grass is always greener." I'm just afraid.
*sigh*
I remember when I liked going to work.
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I went to Whole Foods for some emotional eating. I figure emotional eating can be justified if it's good for you, but it's still a splurge because it's expensive. "Expensive" is almost as good as "fattening." So - cioppino from the seafood soup bar and tofu saag, veggie dal, and chicken korma from the hot food bar. That, along with some wise advice from the Roomie and yesterday's ANTM are making it slowly better.