Moving, moving, moving
First off, is it me or does every other entry that I write start with something along the lines of "Jesus, I am such a whiny baby." Oh well, that's what this is here for, yeah?
So let's see. Life recap:
We moved to Reno, NV. I'm sorry... what? Yes. Truth. Chris was assigned Reno, NV for his first office with his new (very insane) job. He seems to love the job, so that's good. As far as Reno itself=- it's actually pretty nice. The views of the mountains here are fucking amazing. The people are nice. The city is clean. There are a lot of playgrounds and movie theaters and plenty to do. I actually can't really complain about being relocated here in terms of those things. What DOES suck is the distance. From my family and friends. It's awful. And it's lonely. But the fact that I don't hate Reno itself is the only thing that gives me any hope.
I also miss my job. So so much. I was SO happy with it. I don't think a lot of people get that. I genuinely loved going to work and seeing my friends and the work itself was actually something that was fulfilling to me. I am worried that I'll never find something like that again. But, I guess I'm going to try anyway. It's just hard when you work in the same building for a period of 9 years and to start over is terrifying- especially after I worked so hard to find myself in the position that I ultimately had... and how I know that if I had stayed there I was on my way up. To career land. Which is really what I want.
Anyway, enough about that. It is what it is.
Topic time:
The kids- M is 4!!! It's insane. Just last night I was watching videos of her as a 2 year old and thinking "where did the time go?" And now I have ANOTHER (almost) 2 year old... Who am I? LoL. It's so weird to become a mother. Sometimes I wake up and I think "who are those little people? Oh, right... they're my CHILDREN." I guess that's just because I don't really feel all that different than I did when I was like 16. I'm gonna look at that in a positive way, hehe. M is so so so so smart and sassy and beautiful. Every time I look at her I think she definitely got the best of each of us. I just hope that we can keep her beautiful ass grounded. I have a feeling she has the potential to be one of those "popular" gorgeous teens and I am constantly trying to teach her that she has to stick up for people and be friendly and kind to everyone. Hope I'm successful. C is almost 2. He is affectionately referred to as the family lunatic, lol. He has a very strong personality. When he's snuggly, he's the snuggliest... but BOY when he's in a mood- PHEW! I wonder where he gets THAT from. Couldn't possibly be ME... hehehe.
Love- Oh... love. Things are always interesting. But working. That's what you do. You make it work. Always. Figuring it out is the difficult thing. And being strong and sure and confident that everyone is happy and safe. Complicated. Constantly.
Work- Looking.
School- Contemplating.
Future- Who knows. Another baby somewhere down the line? Another move to another city? I'm ready for an adventure and I'm really hopeful to start to find things settling down and being a little easier and steadier for me, personally. I've been working really hard to support everything it has taken to get here and now we're here, so I'm ready to relax a little bit. I hope that happens eventually.
So let's see. Life recap:
We moved to Reno, NV. I'm sorry... what? Yes. Truth. Chris was assigned Reno, NV for his first office with his new (very insane) job. He seems to love the job, so that's good. As far as Reno itself=- it's actually pretty nice. The views of the mountains here are fucking amazing. The people are nice. The city is clean. There are a lot of playgrounds and movie theaters and plenty to do. I actually can't really complain about being relocated here in terms of those things. What DOES suck is the distance. From my family and friends. It's awful. And it's lonely. But the fact that I don't hate Reno itself is the only thing that gives me any hope.
I also miss my job. So so much. I was SO happy with it. I don't think a lot of people get that. I genuinely loved going to work and seeing my friends and the work itself was actually something that was fulfilling to me. I am worried that I'll never find something like that again. But, I guess I'm going to try anyway. It's just hard when you work in the same building for a period of 9 years and to start over is terrifying- especially after I worked so hard to find myself in the position that I ultimately had... and how I know that if I had stayed there I was on my way up. To career land. Which is really what I want.
Anyway, enough about that. It is what it is.
Topic time:
The kids- M is 4!!! It's insane. Just last night I was watching videos of her as a 2 year old and thinking "where did the time go?" And now I have ANOTHER (almost) 2 year old... Who am I? LoL. It's so weird to become a mother. Sometimes I wake up and I think "who are those little people? Oh, right... they're my CHILDREN." I guess that's just because I don't really feel all that different than I did when I was like 16. I'm gonna look at that in a positive way, hehe. M is so so so so smart and sassy and beautiful. Every time I look at her I think she definitely got the best of each of us. I just hope that we can keep her beautiful ass grounded. I have a feeling she has the potential to be one of those "popular" gorgeous teens and I am constantly trying to teach her that she has to stick up for people and be friendly and kind to everyone. Hope I'm successful. C is almost 2. He is affectionately referred to as the family lunatic, lol. He has a very strong personality. When he's snuggly, he's the snuggliest... but BOY when he's in a mood- PHEW! I wonder where he gets THAT from. Couldn't possibly be ME... hehehe.
Love- Oh... love. Things are always interesting. But working. That's what you do. You make it work. Always. Figuring it out is the difficult thing. And being strong and sure and confident that everyone is happy and safe. Complicated. Constantly.
Work- Looking.
School- Contemplating.
Future- Who knows. Another baby somewhere down the line? Another move to another city? I'm ready for an adventure and I'm really hopeful to start to find things settling down and being a little easier and steadier for me, personally. I've been working really hard to support everything it has taken to get here and now we're here, so I'm ready to relax a little bit. I hope that happens eventually.