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I seriously can't wait to get out of high school.. I definately don't think it's everything it's talked up to be.. I want to get out and move away to college and start all over.. Im just tired of Cape Coral and just everything! I miss middle school days where my only real problems were boys.. or friends.. I hate growing up.. it just forces me to face the real world and real problems.. Lately I've just been so depressed.. SO much is going on and theres nothing I can do about it.. I just have to sit back and watch it all happen around me .. i just want to check out of my life for a couple of days... but of course.. I cant. I try to hold it in and just not say much about it because I dont want to bum other people out.. but i just cant hold it in anymore..
This past year:
-my parents got divorced
-my dad moved away
-mom got a new boyfriend,( who i cant stand )- he's totally changed her
This past week:
-My dad was diagnosed with cancer, and he is going to have to have treatments and surgeries and i hate it that i cant be with him- I hate that he has to go through all of this alone.. I seriously wish I could just take it away from him- I hate to see other people have to go through things like that- Its hard enough for me, I cant even imagine how he must feel
-My brother moved to Penn. for college :( i miss him!!
-My classes are so hard...they stress me out... and trying to keep my grades up-ugh..
-I miss my best friend, Joy! -since shes not at mariner now i dont get to see her much:(
-I miss Andy- he's living in Colorado.. :(
Sometimes I just feel like no one understands me, like i dont know who to turn to to talk to when Im having a hard time...
I dont know... i guess I just needed to vent!
UGH...
Anyways...
cheerleadings going good- first pep rally is tomorrow and game- Im excited-
I think im gonna start interning at one of the hospitals. . :) so that'll be fun!
only 2 more days till the weekend...
This past year:
-my parents got divorced
-my dad moved away
-mom got a new boyfriend,( who i cant stand )- he's totally changed her
This past week:
-My dad was diagnosed with cancer, and he is going to have to have treatments and surgeries and i hate it that i cant be with him- I hate that he has to go through all of this alone.. I seriously wish I could just take it away from him- I hate to see other people have to go through things like that- Its hard enough for me, I cant even imagine how he must feel
-My brother moved to Penn. for college :( i miss him!!
-My classes are so hard...they stress me out... and trying to keep my grades up-ugh..
-I miss my best friend, Joy! -since shes not at mariner now i dont get to see her much:(
-I miss Andy- he's living in Colorado.. :(
Sometimes I just feel like no one understands me, like i dont know who to turn to to talk to when Im having a hard time...
I dont know... i guess I just needed to vent!
UGH...
Anyways...
cheerleadings going good- first pep rally is tomorrow and game- Im excited-
I think im gonna start interning at one of the hospitals. . :) so that'll be fun!
only 2 more days till the weekend...