going home
Today is my last day at work in the EGAT office forever (or maybe till late August depending on how close to the "schedule" the planes flights are) Feeling kinda down. I thought things would be as fun as they were last time, but people are feeling the stress the heat and the humidity, and everyone is at each others throats. I got a new BC pill cause my old one was causing such evil mood swings, but this one is making me extra irritable to the point I can't handle being around anyone with any idiocyncracies...so basically anyone human. I feel isolated, alone, unwanted...I know that Joe loves me very much and my parents do too but I don't feel like anyone else gives a damn. I just want to be home right now. I want to be held and told I'm wonderful. I want to hear less complaining about what can be fixed and see more results. That is my newest pet peeve, there is a guy I work with who complains constantly about all the stuff he still has yet to do and then he sits and plays solitaire all day. Then at the end of his 11hrs of playing solitaire he will work on one of the 5 items he has been complaining about and get it half done and then complain some more that he has no time to do things. He also licks stuff a lot - like spoons and lids and he slurps his juice - gross. See - you seeeee how irritable I'm getting???????????? I hate myself when I'm like this. Its almost over, I'll get an appointment with my doc to try a new type of BC again, hopefully one that makes me less of a hopped up bitch. I've been sleeping 10-11 hours a night again - you know you're depressed when that happens. Owell. I'll write more later. Too much complainig for one post...don't want to lose the friends i've still got.