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Yesterday I was sitting on the couch watching tv (like always) and my dad walked by. Two seconds later he walked by again, only this time sat down next to me to ask me what was wrong! I honestly didn't know my dad could detect emotion. So, I've been telling him some personal things lately.
I dont know why things have been so crappy. Its ironic, when I posted my last entry everything was just average, but right after...things started sucking. And its not anything specific. Little things happen and when I think of the little things, I guess I might as well think of the big things too. But really, what I need to start doing is stop thinking of myself all of the time. Sometimes thats hard, because myself is usually the only person I'm with 24/7. I just need my best friend home. I need a best friend. I read an article yesterday that said women cant be totally healthy, physically or emotionally, without women friends, or without friends in general for that matter. Its true. I feel it.
Even my dreams have been horrible. I had a nightmare last night. I was at church and there was this popular guy I was walking with and at the end of the hall there was a murder and all the guy said was "oh, I really wish the girls would stop doing that to get my attention". Then I kind of half woke up and realized two things 1. murders happen in real life and that is horrifying, 2. I was having some hardcore cramps. The night before I dreamed I was at a dance and President Hinckley made a circle for us to stay in when we danced and I danced outside of it. :( Why?!?! So, I have a lot of decorative pillows on my bed. When I go to sleep I usually put all of them at the foot of my bed. When my pillows stay on the bed all throught the night, that means I had a good night's sleep. Last night, I kicked them all off. AND my sweatshirt was twisted up to my neck.
Right before bed last night, my mom called to ask me where I want my brothers to take me to eat for my surprise birthday celebration on saturday. SURPRISE!!!