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Self portrait. I can only do them abstract.
I had a weird dream last night. I dreamed about boxes and boxes of Orbitz gum and about my jaw locking. And I dreamed about falling in love with this random person I know, who I haven't seen since senior year. Which was soooo long ago, by the way. In my dream, our fortune cookie writings were on heavy, metal pens instead. Maybe that means something. You write your own fortune!
By the way, I've had two really nice fortunes from fortune cookies in the past month.
Fortune #1: "People find it hard to resist your persuasive manner."
Fortune #2: "Your star will be his guiding light for the rest of his life."
I hate going to church alone, it is so uncomfortable for me. I hate going anywhere alone. I never want to stay the whole three hours because of that, but I feel like I need to since I have a calling. And since that's the right thing to do. Why did everyone in my family have to grow up so much faster than me and leave me all alone. I could have gone to church with my brothers if they didn't get married so fast. I'm sick of dating. I just want to go live in a cave somewhere.
You know what else is weird? I've watched three movies recently, at completely different, spread out times. I realized today that they all had to do with the ocean! Bedknobs and Broomsticks, Finding Nemo, and The Little Mermaid. Maybe I'm a Pisces! I wish I had long, red hair like Ariel.
Yesterday I took my first calculus test and it was HARD. I thought I was ready, but I guess I wasnt.
My mom comes home in 13 more days ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I cant take this.