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Have drank beer every night since Monday. It is now Saturday. I refuse to feel shame because of this, as I no longer do this sort of thing anymore, so once in a great great long while is okay. So there feelings of alcoholism.
Got drunk with James last night. Made out quite a bit.....in the bed. YAY! He spent the night, cuz we were trashed. Don't care-I'm still a happy camper.....
The above was posted like two weeks ago, but never made it to a finished draft, I think becuase I may have still been intoxicated when I typed it. Good for me.
So it's Friday, and I am once again broke broke broke! However, I deserve to go out and drink a few beers tonight, because it's been a poopy week. Much stress.
Oh, and, James worked with me last night, and we were bickering (which is the norm) and at one point he says, "you are the reason I am an alcoholic". Oh mother-may-I PLEASE overanalyze this statement??!!!! Does this mean A-absolutely nothing. Just an offhand comment. B-that he is so annoyed by me that he has to go home and drown his desire to strangle me with his bare hands in beer. Or, my personal favorite... C-that he wants me so strongly, but is scared of what he feels, and knows that it is wrong with us working together, so he hides it and drinks beer instead.
Honestly, I don't get it. We are so so flirty flirty. Not in an obvious way, but more like the way we look at each other. I actually make eye contact with him sometimes. When I'm not scared.
Got drunk with James last night. Made out quite a bit.....in the bed. YAY! He spent the night, cuz we were trashed. Don't care-I'm still a happy camper.....
The above was posted like two weeks ago, but never made it to a finished draft, I think becuase I may have still been intoxicated when I typed it. Good for me.
So it's Friday, and I am once again broke broke broke! However, I deserve to go out and drink a few beers tonight, because it's been a poopy week. Much stress.
Oh, and, James worked with me last night, and we were bickering (which is the norm) and at one point he says, "you are the reason I am an alcoholic". Oh mother-may-I PLEASE overanalyze this statement??!!!! Does this mean A-absolutely nothing. Just an offhand comment. B-that he is so annoyed by me that he has to go home and drown his desire to strangle me with his bare hands in beer. Or, my personal favorite... C-that he wants me so strongly, but is scared of what he feels, and knows that it is wrong with us working together, so he hides it and drinks beer instead.
Honestly, I don't get it. We are so so flirty flirty. Not in an obvious way, but more like the way we look at each other. I actually make eye contact with him sometimes. When I'm not scared.