i've been gone awhile but now i breath
here i am lying in the dark
with you
in my arms'
on my back
your head on my cheast
as i lay there
my mind wanders
my heart beats ever so slowly
eyes heavy
in the dark
i close my eyes
i drift off
i am now trapped
in a tunnle
in the dark
there is a voice
overbearing
and loud
it scares me
but i know
its me
the other side
that helps
me think
in the dark
there is a glowing light
i don't know what it is
does it lead to heaven
or does it leave to hell
i sit there
not sure
if i should run
towards it
or away
confusion overwhelms me
in the dark
i think
its the way
of telling me
to take that risk
dive right in
don't be scared
you never know
don't regret
being in the dark
for if you do
you will alsways be there
never leaving
always wondering
in the dark
but your right my heart says yes, while my mind is scared, and screams, no, wait, think, stop, go, no, stop, wait, how, you, her, fucked up, stop, go, stand still, rush towards, what to do? i can not say how to do it. i can, no, do, for i shall, not know, nor shall she, stop, go, no, wait, you, fucked it up, she, fucked, dammit! go, no, wait, stop, cannot breath, cannot think, thoughts over whelming me, things not being right, why can't i think right, why can't, i fix things, i am a different person, better in my eyes, hers? am i better in hers? wait, go, go, go, no, no, slow, down, fucking stop!! whats wrong with you? whats wrong with me???
why can't i stop
why can't i stop
why can't i stop
why can't i stop
STOP
STOP
STOP
STOP
slow down
we breath
i breath
i feel calmer
i am calmer
i now know what i want
even if i wander
even if there is fear
or uncertinty
i know what i want
i know what must be done
or in theory
thoeries scare me
this one does
allot more than
i let known
or let be seen
i confessed
how does she take it
i want to listen
i want to be there
i want to be silent
and hear the voice
that sweet voice
that i once heard my name escape from
with pleasure
and with pain
with sorrow
and with anger
the anger and pain
i caused
i don't want to be like that
i don't want to do that
i will never be that
not again
not ever
for i rather
be gone from all
sights
before i shall go back
to the fear pain
and the anxiety
god the thoughts!
what to do? what to do??
in reply to the one question
here are some of the things i have been working on but i know to those who want me to finish my novel i've been writing it and plan on posting it soon when i have time been so busy with work and with tattooing people now ha ha
give me some feed back on this stuff
with you
in my arms'
on my back
your head on my cheast
as i lay there
my mind wanders
my heart beats ever so slowly
eyes heavy
in the dark
i close my eyes
i drift off
i am now trapped
in a tunnle
in the dark
there is a voice
overbearing
and loud
it scares me
but i know
its me
the other side
that helps
me think
in the dark
there is a glowing light
i don't know what it is
does it lead to heaven
or does it leave to hell
i sit there
not sure
if i should run
towards it
or away
confusion overwhelms me
in the dark
i think
its the way
of telling me
to take that risk
dive right in
don't be scared
you never know
don't regret
being in the dark
for if you do
you will alsways be there
never leaving
always wondering
in the dark
but your right my heart says yes, while my mind is scared, and screams, no, wait, think, stop, go, no, stop, wait, how, you, her, fucked up, stop, go, stand still, rush towards, what to do? i can not say how to do it. i can, no, do, for i shall, not know, nor shall she, stop, go, no, wait, you, fucked it up, she, fucked, dammit! go, no, wait, stop, cannot breath, cannot think, thoughts over whelming me, things not being right, why can't i think right, why can't, i fix things, i am a different person, better in my eyes, hers? am i better in hers? wait, go, go, go, no, no, slow, down, fucking stop!! whats wrong with you? whats wrong with me???
why can't i stop
why can't i stop
why can't i stop
why can't i stop
STOP
STOP
STOP
STOP
slow down
we breath
i breath
i feel calmer
i am calmer
i now know what i want
even if i wander
even if there is fear
or uncertinty
i know what i want
i know what must be done
or in theory
thoeries scare me
this one does
allot more than
i let known
or let be seen
i confessed
how does she take it
i want to listen
i want to be there
i want to be silent
and hear the voice
that sweet voice
that i once heard my name escape from
with pleasure
and with pain
with sorrow
and with anger
the anger and pain
i caused
i don't want to be like that
i don't want to do that
i will never be that
not again
not ever
for i rather
be gone from all
sights
before i shall go back
to the fear pain
and the anxiety
god the thoughts!
what to do? what to do??
in reply to the one question
here are some of the things i have been working on but i know to those who want me to finish my novel i've been writing it and plan on posting it soon when i have time been so busy with work and with tattooing people now ha ha
give me some feed back on this stuff