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a weird day so far... i only had 3 hours of sleep but i tell you it was all worth it... spending the morning with the woman i love and vegan waffles and VEGAN BLTS!!!! ah sorry spazed there for a second but it was amazing.. i could have not have asked for a better day.... untilll..... i found out my best friend has hpv.. precancerous cells that lead up to cervical cancer its not too serious cuz its mild but it hit us hard me harder than her really... mainly cuz i had abnormal you might have cancer results 2 1/2 years ago.. and my fucking stupid scared childish self back then said fuck it i don't want to know... but now i do... i wanna know if i still have it... cuz there is a high chance i could no longer have considering the change in diet and taking better care of myself and quiting the smoking of the cigarettes even though i had a relasp there it should help me...i mean my grandmother is sick and smoking helped it and my dads life is controled by it and i don't want to be like that i don't want shit like that to happen to me.... so i am making a stand to not cave in no matter how hard i will call her up and have her talk to me about it and calm me down or something... but yeah back to the hpv shit i don't want to die young or be oblivious to the fact i have to much i want to do with my life now toooo much i care for too much love i want to give and recive ;-P god i'm still a prevert even after this shit.... but within the month i plan on going to get my papsmear then go from there if it comes back normal i will be soooo happy.... that it is gone if it come back abnormal then i have to have $400 test and then $160 shots (3) did i mention $160 each shots but hell it will be fucking worht it and that best worse case.... if it's cancer cancer i will undergo massive treatments..... wow i rambled long enough for now... but other than that sometimes being a lesbian can be difficult lol dam pms... oh well ha ha but yes i had the most amazing morning with her and our two faavorite gay boys... i just realized i am the only one who had a T for there first letter i hang out with 3 J's lol but yes it was fun i totally passed out though at dandilions but yeah go janelle for getting picture >_< ha ha i look stupid in them too ha ha but yes morning was amazing now later on tongiht i have to go and eat dinner with the guy i should be hopefully working with to learn more about the job and pick his brain about it my secrect to you all who do read this shit if you do is that i love to get dirty when i work no pun intended...