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[schmello]

so. hypothethically, there's this girl who comes home for the summer. all her friends missed her and are happy to see her. every night she's out with them, and it's just like high school again. she is happy. however, after a while, the only person who actually invites her out is this boy. the group of friends accepts that she will always be there because he brings her, and eventually stop calling to invite her out. he always calls her to make sure she is included her in the day's events, as it is common knowledge that, sweet though they may, this particular group of friends often are having too much fun to remember to invite people sometimes. the girl is very grateful for this, and the boy becomes her best friend. he is always there to talk to and support her, because the girl just went through the shittiest year of her life, one that likely will not be matched in her future in terms of shitiness. however, once it is revealed that the boy has feelings for the girl, she has to respectfully decline a relationship, for she is still knee-deep in shittiness and knows that it would not work out. the boy agrees, and they conclude that they will remain friends. however. the calls stop. the girl is left sitting in her room most nights, wondering what happened, what she did wrong. when she does make her way to her friends, she often finds him there, enjoying himself. the boy no longer sticks up for her or compliments her; instead he makes snide remarks about how she is a "whore", for amusement of his friends. he insinuates to her friends that she has ditched them for her ex boyfriend. he claims that she "used" him. the girl has heard this claim several times in her past, but again she wonders what she did wrong. how does one person "use" another? because he gave her rides and occasionally leant her money for green tea [theoretically], she is obligated to return his feelings, or face ostrisization from her friends? of course, in this situation, people will often tell this girl that the boy in question is "acting out" because he is "hurt". the girl can only reflect on the fact that she isn't feeling too optimistic herself, yet has done nothing intentionally to hurt him back. this hypothetical girl can only come to the conclusion that she no longer will passively take abuse for the fear of fighting back and hurting others, and has only this left to say:

it's not my fault he is better than you.