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This is not reflecting my current mood, I just promised myself I would write it while in a different mood all together:
I've been listening to this song alot lately, and I find it to be a metaphor for the turn my life has taken, lyrics with notes under each lyric as to how it pertains to my present situation:
Breakin’ rocks in the hot sun
(I took a job, it's uncomfortable and undesirable, bad hours as well)
I fought the law and the law won
(I fought the system, but the system seems to have won)
I needed money ’cause I had none
(I've given up my hair, my regular sleep, at times parts of my religious life, because of this job, because of money)
I fought the law and the law won
(I tried to work around the system, but it seems to be trying to assimilate me)
I left my baby and it feels so bad
(I have no girl, life with no girl sucks, as anyone could tell you)
Guess my race is run
(I'm at the point of giving up, it seems to be all over)
She’s the best girl that I ever had
(She's the ONLY girl worth meantioning I've ever been with)
I fought the law and the law won
(I fought the system, all it got me was a lonely life, working for a soul-less corperation)
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Right, I had to write that, if I break promises to myself, what kind of man would I be?
that sounded nuts, I haven't been completely sane lately
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right, so anyway, I have two good ideas why my sucky life is fine
One: I've been thinking, maybe my life is so sucky now so that whenever it gets good, it will seem like heaven on earth, like when I started dating steph, because I had never had a girlfreind like THAT before, it seemed great, even though she turned out to not really care about me.
Two: Read "The Myth of Sysaphis" by Camus
I've been listening to this song alot lately, and I find it to be a metaphor for the turn my life has taken, lyrics with notes under each lyric as to how it pertains to my present situation:
Breakin’ rocks in the hot sun
(I took a job, it's uncomfortable and undesirable, bad hours as well)
I fought the law and the law won
(I fought the system, but the system seems to have won)
I needed money ’cause I had none
(I've given up my hair, my regular sleep, at times parts of my religious life, because of this job, because of money)
I fought the law and the law won
(I tried to work around the system, but it seems to be trying to assimilate me)
I left my baby and it feels so bad
(I have no girl, life with no girl sucks, as anyone could tell you)
Guess my race is run
(I'm at the point of giving up, it seems to be all over)
She’s the best girl that I ever had
(She's the ONLY girl worth meantioning I've ever been with)
I fought the law and the law won
(I fought the system, all it got me was a lonely life, working for a soul-less corperation)
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Right, I had to write that, if I break promises to myself, what kind of man would I be?
that sounded nuts, I haven't been completely sane lately
--------------------------
right, so anyway, I have two good ideas why my sucky life is fine
One: I've been thinking, maybe my life is so sucky now so that whenever it gets good, it will seem like heaven on earth, like when I started dating steph, because I had never had a girlfreind like THAT before, it seemed great, even though she turned out to not really care about me.
Two: Read "The Myth of Sysaphis" by Camus