Turning away from the dragon and facing the admirer
I'm not sure what it is, but something's in my head that tells me to keep him close. Even after a fairly painful breakup two years ago, and after all the heartache I went through, that voice was still there asking me, "Why the hell did you do that?" It quieted down for a long time, but it was never completely silent. Especially since we've started talking again last year, there's always been this sorta love. Usually it was just a friend kind of love, like how happy you feel when an old friend calls you out of the blue. (Bad example, but I'm at a loss for description here.) Sometimes it took other forms... but those were okay, too. The voice has led me back to where it originally ended, but on a much better level.
The little voice decided to come out tonight. I felt weird tonight admitting all these things in a summary of three words, and not receiving them back. I'm not going to force anything; those should come from the heart. I just wish he would understand how much I really do care, and I need some help with that. I feel like he cares a lot, but sometimes it doesn't seem like it's enough. How much do I really matter? There are a few insecurities I have left that I need his help with; I just hope he's understanding enough.
The little voice decided to come out tonight. I felt weird tonight admitting all these things in a summary of three words, and not receiving them back. I'm not going to force anything; those should come from the heart. I just wish he would understand how much I really do care, and I need some help with that. I feel like he cares a lot, but sometimes it doesn't seem like it's enough. How much do I really matter? There are a few insecurities I have left that I need his help with; I just hope he's understanding enough.