A little more clarity perhaps?
I feel somewhat stitched together more nowadays...
It's been a long time since i consistently feel such wellbeing in my soul.
Its been close to a year a little more than that to be exact...
Nothing can persuade me to exchange all the good that i believe has happened to me...
among the list to give thanks for... To My Lord!
becoming more forthright
understanding that i am a human and not a martyr to suffer at others' whims and fancies
that too much sugar and honey is an invitation to be stepped on... (a.k.a. sucker)
okie the above are the hard lessons of life. That are more bittersweet in nature...
It took immense emotional pain and great sustenance from god, but i got it in the end, i am just a human being with very human needs.
no more naive, no more superman, no more messiah complex.
i have been healed of downright insanity :)
He has been there... when i needed him, when no one else can understand comprehend or stand.... He did...
Okie now to the soft and honeyed parts...
My tutors two of them treated me to lunch and welcomed me into the higher realms of academia with open arms, what can i say, they enrich me with their conversation, intelligence, humour, ambition and generous spirits. Somewhere I have always feared to tread.
Ah Tan my caregroup leader has won my personal affection of the year contest... :D what can I say about this guy he just treated us to the thai express the other day and being with him is a treat compared to others who've promised so much and performed so little.
hmm is this self-revealing? is it true that the way to a man's heart is through his stomach? :D hehe
i've met a bunch of really COOL GAMING BUDDIES!!! HOHOHO Bring on DOTA and AT tournaments forever... thanks go out to nicholas, ryan, lawrence, leonard for immensely satisfying my gaming hunger and for being real cool guys with cool cars and cool homes and music and funloving humourous attitudes and a taste for good supper food.... I couldn't ask for more ... u are the answer to my prayers for varsity gaming buddies. As well as the other dota buddies... secretly i think u guys have it more together than the rest of us. BTW most of them are christian also lar :D and 2 of them come to newcreation also hehehe :D
I got to go out with girls that I've liked for a long time, and I no longer feel insecure or incompetent enough to talk properly publicly or privately... u cannot understand what this means for someone who's lived the past 10 odd years as an introvert and who hardly had a date during that period too.
And of course Dean's List and 4.5 cap score which has wiped away all previous disappointments gradewise for me... and the dignity the Lord has restored to me over shattered dreams.
JZ lar for caring for me in his usual voiceless wordless kind of way..... :D quick ORD
Terra I still think about u lots! take care yo!
Lionel go on and be the Best at what you want to do.
Ah Tan riches from your soul will flow into your pocket.
Nicholas here's to ur P.H.D.
Bernice i salute her royal highness of summa cum laude blood in her veins
Shaohao... we're still brothers though oceans apart
Jason, thanks for doing what u do best bringing people together.
Colin, Annabelle, and Meijie for hearing me ramble and rant during troubled times.
Melvin for helping me shop for clothes :D
Last not least, to the beautiful kids of new creation church who played soccer with me for a week... it really touched something really deep inside me that is dying to be let out. but cannot...
To the cool cyber fans of Arsenal F.C. singapore that have been helping me get my ball skills and body in shape on the soccer field :D u guys are cool!
To S for becoming the target of my dreamy life... and feeling my chest with hope and not hate. :)
To the pastor of my heart, Joseph Prince, without whom my life will be infinitely more bland and selfdestructive i think :)
To Minghong who's been a great person for me to follow.
Robin, cause he's kewl :)
To my parents whom we always disagree with in opinion but have the best for me at heart.
To my teachers... it's been a great year... for me in school. Thanks.... for being such willing teachers
hehe although alot of people will never read this i just want to say THANK U :)
To the other lovely people... who've added to my experience of life in one way or the other... my heartfelt appreciation.
To anyone who thinks i've missed you out...and reads my blog all the best
Peace
Dennis 07/04
It's been a long time since i consistently feel such wellbeing in my soul.
Its been close to a year a little more than that to be exact...
Nothing can persuade me to exchange all the good that i believe has happened to me...
among the list to give thanks for... To My Lord!
becoming more forthright
understanding that i am a human and not a martyr to suffer at others' whims and fancies
that too much sugar and honey is an invitation to be stepped on... (a.k.a. sucker)
okie the above are the hard lessons of life. That are more bittersweet in nature...
It took immense emotional pain and great sustenance from god, but i got it in the end, i am just a human being with very human needs.
no more naive, no more superman, no more messiah complex.
i have been healed of downright insanity :)
He has been there... when i needed him, when no one else can understand comprehend or stand.... He did...
Okie now to the soft and honeyed parts...
My tutors two of them treated me to lunch and welcomed me into the higher realms of academia with open arms, what can i say, they enrich me with their conversation, intelligence, humour, ambition and generous spirits. Somewhere I have always feared to tread.
Ah Tan my caregroup leader has won my personal affection of the year contest... :D what can I say about this guy he just treated us to the thai express the other day and being with him is a treat compared to others who've promised so much and performed so little.
hmm is this self-revealing? is it true that the way to a man's heart is through his stomach? :D hehe
i've met a bunch of really COOL GAMING BUDDIES!!! HOHOHO Bring on DOTA and AT tournaments forever... thanks go out to nicholas, ryan, lawrence, leonard for immensely satisfying my gaming hunger and for being real cool guys with cool cars and cool homes and music and funloving humourous attitudes and a taste for good supper food.... I couldn't ask for more ... u are the answer to my prayers for varsity gaming buddies. As well as the other dota buddies... secretly i think u guys have it more together than the rest of us. BTW most of them are christian also lar :D and 2 of them come to newcreation also hehehe :D
I got to go out with girls that I've liked for a long time, and I no longer feel insecure or incompetent enough to talk properly publicly or privately... u cannot understand what this means for someone who's lived the past 10 odd years as an introvert and who hardly had a date during that period too.
And of course Dean's List and 4.5 cap score which has wiped away all previous disappointments gradewise for me... and the dignity the Lord has restored to me over shattered dreams.
JZ lar for caring for me in his usual voiceless wordless kind of way..... :D quick ORD
Terra I still think about u lots! take care yo!
Lionel go on and be the Best at what you want to do.
Ah Tan riches from your soul will flow into your pocket.
Nicholas here's to ur P.H.D.
Bernice i salute her royal highness of summa cum laude blood in her veins
Shaohao... we're still brothers though oceans apart
Jason, thanks for doing what u do best bringing people together.
Colin, Annabelle, and Meijie for hearing me ramble and rant during troubled times.
Melvin for helping me shop for clothes :D
Last not least, to the beautiful kids of new creation church who played soccer with me for a week... it really touched something really deep inside me that is dying to be let out. but cannot...
To the cool cyber fans of Arsenal F.C. singapore that have been helping me get my ball skills and body in shape on the soccer field :D u guys are cool!
To S for becoming the target of my dreamy life... and feeling my chest with hope and not hate. :)
To the pastor of my heart, Joseph Prince, without whom my life will be infinitely more bland and selfdestructive i think :)
To Minghong who's been a great person for me to follow.
Robin, cause he's kewl :)
To my parents whom we always disagree with in opinion but have the best for me at heart.
To my teachers... it's been a great year... for me in school. Thanks.... for being such willing teachers
hehe although alot of people will never read this i just want to say THANK U :)
To the other lovely people... who've added to my experience of life in one way or the other... my heartfelt appreciation.
To anyone who thinks i've missed you out...and reads my blog all the best
Peace
Dennis 07/04