freedom

[mysterious_joy]

I feel like writing a poem today. Maybe you can relate.

I desire to be free
but I know
that can't be all
I need to be free
but I also need love
and I know
there is God to remember
not as a shadow of despair
not as another hell like many others
I think it's best
to just remember God is love
someone who won't yell or scream
or bark another accusation
someone who'd simply like
to give me peace
it seems like a river
sit down and stay, I find myself thinking
and I'm not afraid anymore
at least for a while
the water's running quietly
and I may stay here
I wish I could say it's alright now
but I look into the distance
I'm not sure if I understand everything
perhaps I need to bow
and find something in the sand
and not in the skies I am always trying to reach
sand? wasn't that what I was made of?
some day in good old paradise?
I have water, I have sand
I guess I just found myself
and I am at peace
dear God, I thank you
please keep your grace shine
I'd like to live in the light
there isn't much more I can say...