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im trying desperately to keep myself convinced that fast food makes me sick and i absolutely cannot eat it under any circumstances or i will throw up from all the grease and animal fat.
is there such thing as a fourth wheel?
im sorry.
my ass disappeared overnight.
my boobs hurt and are shrinking.
my blood sugar has dropped drastically since monday, obviously, and im going through withdrawls and dizzy spells.
since theres the absense of carbs, theres the absense of seratonin. and if anyone has seen legally blonde, we know what that means. thank goodness i dont have a husband.
my mom is like "YOU ARENT EATING ENOUGH AND YOU ARENT EATING ALL THE PROTEIN"
i am TOO eating every freaking bite plus regular snacks. my diet has consisted of for the past week - meat, shrimp, cheese, nuts, green vegetables, iced tea, and sugar-free fudgsicles. oh and my lowfat yogurt + splenda + imitation strawberry extract in the morning.
i really just wanna stayed holed up until its all done. immerse myself in books and movies and swimming and work. thats it.
i want to fix your problems, but i cant even fix the problems with myself. i want to be your everything, but im slowly wasting myself away. im crying, but the sobs fall on deaf, preoccupied ears. its no ones fault but mine. i want to be strong in my convictions but im only even more a fool.
lo odio todo.
is there such thing as a fourth wheel?
im sorry.
my ass disappeared overnight.
my boobs hurt and are shrinking.
my blood sugar has dropped drastically since monday, obviously, and im going through withdrawls and dizzy spells.
since theres the absense of carbs, theres the absense of seratonin. and if anyone has seen legally blonde, we know what that means. thank goodness i dont have a husband.
my mom is like "YOU ARENT EATING ENOUGH AND YOU ARENT EATING ALL THE PROTEIN"
i am TOO eating every freaking bite plus regular snacks. my diet has consisted of for the past week - meat, shrimp, cheese, nuts, green vegetables, iced tea, and sugar-free fudgsicles. oh and my lowfat yogurt + splenda + imitation strawberry extract in the morning.
i really just wanna stayed holed up until its all done. immerse myself in books and movies and swimming and work. thats it.
i want to fix your problems, but i cant even fix the problems with myself. i want to be your everything, but im slowly wasting myself away. im crying, but the sobs fall on deaf, preoccupied ears. its no ones fault but mine. i want to be strong in my convictions but im only even more a fool.
lo odio todo.