for those who care
i sorta feel like poo right now so i have nothing to do so i decided to post something...
tonight was the party for the first cls girls soccer team in 3 years (as long as i've been playin soccer here) an somehow it made me feel like a real loser... i mean, over the season i learned to tolerate and even love the girls on the team but its all for shit. molly and i (the captains) had to do this big long speech which was fine since we did well (for being completely unplanned) but the rest just... sucked. for me at least. i think it was because i was inelligible for 2 weeks, i feel so isolated. coach had this huge slide show but i'm pretty sure all the pics were taken in those 2 weeks so i wasn't in any of them, and they had lost of quotes which i didn't get and they girls were just like "no, you weren't there, you wouldnt get it"
and when she handed out awards that we all voted on, they had to make up one for me and the other losers who didn't get voted for. "most effort", "tough as nails", "outstanding player" and of course my favorite, "most time spent on the ground during a game" award. that was me. it was pretty funny at first because it was so true but then she started handing out the real awards and it was the best i could do just to smile.
i'm the captain. loads of laughs. right?
at least during the party. i can tell i'm good at acting. or i was just in denial... afterwards though, even my mom could tell i wasnt feelin so great so she got me ice cream.
so now the season is over. no more games to play or time to try and prove myeslf... they ended up putting me as half-back for the year, not sweeper, which is fine since i didn't like sweeper anyway. but outside-mid doesn't exactly make one feel important... thats usually where they put the screw-ups. oh well, i guess it's what i'm good at. rosie will make a great captain when i graduate.
teddy was sweet and offered to come to the party but somehow we couldnt get a hold of eachother so he went bowling with his friends instead...
i also got up at 6 this morning to go to a pointlessly stupid writing seminar thing... maybe its the lack of sleep thats makin me feel sorry for myself. there was a short story class thing there i wanted to go to but it sucked.
so i'm basically grounded too and i'm begininng to hate my life, but i'm sure i'll find something to look foreward to
I would wish upon a star
but that star, it doesnt shine
so read my book, with a boring ending
a short story of a lonely guy
tonight was the party for the first cls girls soccer team in 3 years (as long as i've been playin soccer here) an somehow it made me feel like a real loser... i mean, over the season i learned to tolerate and even love the girls on the team but its all for shit. molly and i (the captains) had to do this big long speech which was fine since we did well (for being completely unplanned) but the rest just... sucked. for me at least. i think it was because i was inelligible for 2 weeks, i feel so isolated. coach had this huge slide show but i'm pretty sure all the pics were taken in those 2 weeks so i wasn't in any of them, and they had lost of quotes which i didn't get and they girls were just like "no, you weren't there, you wouldnt get it"
and when she handed out awards that we all voted on, they had to make up one for me and the other losers who didn't get voted for. "most effort", "tough as nails", "outstanding player" and of course my favorite, "most time spent on the ground during a game" award. that was me. it was pretty funny at first because it was so true but then she started handing out the real awards and it was the best i could do just to smile.
i'm the captain. loads of laughs. right?
at least during the party. i can tell i'm good at acting. or i was just in denial... afterwards though, even my mom could tell i wasnt feelin so great so she got me ice cream.
so now the season is over. no more games to play or time to try and prove myeslf... they ended up putting me as half-back for the year, not sweeper, which is fine since i didn't like sweeper anyway. but outside-mid doesn't exactly make one feel important... thats usually where they put the screw-ups. oh well, i guess it's what i'm good at. rosie will make a great captain when i graduate.
teddy was sweet and offered to come to the party but somehow we couldnt get a hold of eachother so he went bowling with his friends instead...
i also got up at 6 this morning to go to a pointlessly stupid writing seminar thing... maybe its the lack of sleep thats makin me feel sorry for myself. there was a short story class thing there i wanted to go to but it sucked.
so i'm basically grounded too and i'm begininng to hate my life, but i'm sure i'll find something to look foreward to
I would wish upon a star
but that star, it doesnt shine
so read my book, with a boring ending
a short story of a lonely guy