"Hi, I'm Chandler. Could I be wearing anymore clothes??"
Alright, so i was wrong. I didn't wait two years before writing on this again. But it almost feels like it. I'm not sure what happened, but up until a month ago, it felt like the school year was moving fast and lately it has felt like it is moving sooooo slow. Maybe it's because I can't wait for summer vakay. As of right now I have a great job lined up (we will see if I still think that a month from now when I'm knee deep in lab write-ups), a set schedule of stuff I need to be doing (Researching: GRE info, Grad School info, letters of rec, etc.), I'm going to Hawaii with my one and only and his family at the beginning of August and I have my teaching job starting a few weeks after my Hawaii trip for next year....I'm kind of scared because I'm actually in a good place right now...it's creepy. Sadly, my pessimistic side is saying, "Just wait for things to crap out on you...they always do"....isn't that just sad?? Well, I'm going to enjoy my good fortune while I still have it and I'll deal with whatever comes my way later on.
The only thing I am not really enjoying right now is my sniffling, annoying cold...I can't wait to feel better so that I can function normally. I feel like I'm walking around in a daze/dream-like state because I'm so out of it. I have been mixing up days more than usual, being more forgetful, feeling discumbobulated...I feel old or like I should be because of the way my mind has been not working lately. I can't wait to be on top of things...or at least feel like I am on top of things again.
Drama alert: Only, I'm hoping it doesn't get as bad as some are predicting it will. So, in the science department at my high school, there are department chairs or department heads that get all of the info from the district, the principal and relay that information to the rest of us so that we fulfill our duties as being teachers....yeah, I used to think being a teacher simply meant you were just a teacher...oh no, there are so many more duties a teacher has to take care of before, during and after the school year is over. So, for the past several years, the two department heads for our department have been these two women who have been working at Ramona High for the last 12-13 years...talk about seniority. So anyways, I don't know how this came up, maybe it's because we got a new principal like a month and a half ago, but someone decided that our department needed to vote on who in our department should be the department chairs for next year...Now, to someone who hasn't worked with this group of people, been to department meetings, had conversations with these colleagues, this does not seem like a huge deal. But here's why it might end up blowing up in all of our faces because of the two new department chairs that will be heading our department next year. Now, I had a preconception upon coming into this field, that despite the fact that we are teaching high school, we wouldn't be acting like were still in high school. Unfortunately, I was wrong. When i started student teaching at this school, I quickly came to the conclusion that the science department of Ramona High is divided...at that some of the teachers have sided with others against others and some are trying to stay neutral. I also realized that at least once, if not more, during a department meeting, there is some sort of tension/mocking/passive aggressive behavior. And it's relly childish. So, here's the scoop. The two new department chair heads (two males) have conflicting feelings toward the old department heads (the two women) and vice versa...they just do not get along...so now that the veteran women dpeartment heads have been voted out of the position they have had for several years by people in their own department for two people whom they don't get along with, hell might break loose next year...so I guess we'll see. There's never a dull moment in the science wing!!!! I'm just glad I get to be in the audience....yay-yah!
I hate when I snap at Steven. I really need to control my frustration and anger...basically I need to keep tabs on my moodiness. He called me on his break at work and it woke me up from a nap i was taking because I haven't been feeling well lately. So, when I woke up to pick up the phone, I was discumbobulated, groggy and frustrated that I felt worse after my nap, rather then better. So while I was waking up, I had left the TV on and while he was talking I zoned the TV noise in and him out...like twice...and I hate it when he does that to me...zones me out while watching TV when we're on the phone...so he asked me if I was watching TV and I said sort of...then it sky rocketed because I just complained about that to him and how i hate how he lied about it the previous night...and instead of doing the sane thing, I started snapping at him for jumping on me about it...I got so caught up in feeling like he was attacking me that I let it get out of hand and we hung up not in a good mood. Sometimes I just want to punch myself in the face.
Oooooo I can't wait for the summer. I'm hoping that my car still works so that I can take it to the beach every now and then and hopefully my lovely boyfriend will be able to go with me.
P.S. I finally have internet in my apartment...otherwise I wouldn't be writing in this right now, so yay for me! ow I get to 50 bucks a month to have access to the outside world through a computer. :)
The only thing I am not really enjoying right now is my sniffling, annoying cold...I can't wait to feel better so that I can function normally. I feel like I'm walking around in a daze/dream-like state because I'm so out of it. I have been mixing up days more than usual, being more forgetful, feeling discumbobulated...I feel old or like I should be because of the way my mind has been not working lately. I can't wait to be on top of things...or at least feel like I am on top of things again.
Drama alert: Only, I'm hoping it doesn't get as bad as some are predicting it will. So, in the science department at my high school, there are department chairs or department heads that get all of the info from the district, the principal and relay that information to the rest of us so that we fulfill our duties as being teachers....yeah, I used to think being a teacher simply meant you were just a teacher...oh no, there are so many more duties a teacher has to take care of before, during and after the school year is over. So, for the past several years, the two department heads for our department have been these two women who have been working at Ramona High for the last 12-13 years...talk about seniority. So anyways, I don't know how this came up, maybe it's because we got a new principal like a month and a half ago, but someone decided that our department needed to vote on who in our department should be the department chairs for next year...Now, to someone who hasn't worked with this group of people, been to department meetings, had conversations with these colleagues, this does not seem like a huge deal. But here's why it might end up blowing up in all of our faces because of the two new department chairs that will be heading our department next year. Now, I had a preconception upon coming into this field, that despite the fact that we are teaching high school, we wouldn't be acting like were still in high school. Unfortunately, I was wrong. When i started student teaching at this school, I quickly came to the conclusion that the science department of Ramona High is divided...at that some of the teachers have sided with others against others and some are trying to stay neutral. I also realized that at least once, if not more, during a department meeting, there is some sort of tension/mocking/passive aggressive behavior. And it's relly childish. So, here's the scoop. The two new department chair heads (two males) have conflicting feelings toward the old department heads (the two women) and vice versa...they just do not get along...so now that the veteran women dpeartment heads have been voted out of the position they have had for several years by people in their own department for two people whom they don't get along with, hell might break loose next year...so I guess we'll see. There's never a dull moment in the science wing!!!! I'm just glad I get to be in the audience....yay-yah!
I hate when I snap at Steven. I really need to control my frustration and anger...basically I need to keep tabs on my moodiness. He called me on his break at work and it woke me up from a nap i was taking because I haven't been feeling well lately. So, when I woke up to pick up the phone, I was discumbobulated, groggy and frustrated that I felt worse after my nap, rather then better. So while I was waking up, I had left the TV on and while he was talking I zoned the TV noise in and him out...like twice...and I hate it when he does that to me...zones me out while watching TV when we're on the phone...so he asked me if I was watching TV and I said sort of...then it sky rocketed because I just complained about that to him and how i hate how he lied about it the previous night...and instead of doing the sane thing, I started snapping at him for jumping on me about it...I got so caught up in feeling like he was attacking me that I let it get out of hand and we hung up not in a good mood. Sometimes I just want to punch myself in the face.
Oooooo I can't wait for the summer. I'm hoping that my car still works so that I can take it to the beach every now and then and hopefully my lovely boyfriend will be able to go with me.
P.S. I finally have internet in my apartment...otherwise I wouldn't be writing in this right now, so yay for me! ow I get to 50 bucks a month to have access to the outside world through a computer. :)