the way i see it...

[schimiggy]

expectations are evil. what i learned this past hour is that expectations, when not met, can lead to feelings of sadness, frustration, resentment or contempt if the outcomes do not match our desired expectations. terrible eh? i haven't a clue where my expectations stem from, but i know i've developed some along the way. some that have made me very resentful of others, and even sad. everyone has expectations, it just how to handle them that makes you more resilient or...not. i've slowly learned to let go of any expectations that i may have about anything. i want what happens in my life to be of a surprise to me. something un-looked for. like the mj apple i received from DJ. something which falls into my lap when i least anticipate it, can send the most delightful feelings through my mind. when something good does happen, i want it to be that i had no thought that whatsoever was about to occur. I am a firm believer in fate and chance. and rarely have any drive to make the changes in my life besides the ones that are in my own control. people are the hardest, maybe impossible, for any of us to have control over, or even to understand, but that is not our job. we only need to preoccupy ourselves with the things we can do and sometimes expectations are all but reasonable. so let go of any expectations i have. i am happier living a spontaneous life. getting my innocent kicks where i can. gathering any bit of information that helps my mind expand. i won't get angry if things aren't my way or if i don't get what i want. cause all i want is here in my heart. what i want is a sane sense of mind. :) and when i get a "yes", i'm taking it with a huge grin.

:)

<3 schimiggy.