rarrrrr...
Still no job, but i have high hopes that my parents might be able to pay off my car. I'm definitely not going to stop them either... they owe it to me, they put me through alot of hell over the last few years, and they didn't support me during that time... I really feel like this is God's way of making it even. I mean... I'm not being revengful... but i can't get a job, and they might be getting a large some of money that they will want to spend on something different than me, but.... God is making it even. I think he's reminding them that they are responsible for their children... especially the one under 18, not the dumb one that's 20!
Annnyway, I'm picking up another hour in school. That's right! I'm gonna be stuck in this awful place until 1pm instead of noon starting monday! arghhhhH!!!!!! I don't want to, but i need to make sure i graduate this year. I have to! which brings me to my next subject....
Graduating High School on time was another long term goal of mine. The other ones include, getting into a good 4 year college, and taking drastic steps to decrease the amount of stress in my life once i'm an adult.
These goals, and others.... are all going to either happen or not happen sometime in the next 6 months. This time in my life, is harder than it has ever been. I've never felt as stressed as i do now! It's so hard for me right now.
So... with that said, Feel free to beat me up side the head for being so short, and difficult, and unwilling to be reasonable.. or i guess i should say.... beat me upside the head for being worse than usual.. (someones going to yell at me for saying that)... what i'm saying is that... I know i'm a difficult person to deal with and that.... I don't know... just that I'm sorta out of it right now... Things have been weird for the last month or 2 because I've realized that everything that I've been doing for t he last 7 years is coming to a close. Everything i've worked so hard at... is about to be finished... and if they don't end up right, I don't know what I'll do. I'm not sure i could even handle that... ok... this is long enough... just give me some grace.. and compassion.. and maybe a little love.. Lord knows i need it! (hehe)
Annnyway, I'm picking up another hour in school. That's right! I'm gonna be stuck in this awful place until 1pm instead of noon starting monday! arghhhhH!!!!!! I don't want to, but i need to make sure i graduate this year. I have to! which brings me to my next subject....
Graduating High School on time was another long term goal of mine. The other ones include, getting into a good 4 year college, and taking drastic steps to decrease the amount of stress in my life once i'm an adult.
These goals, and others.... are all going to either happen or not happen sometime in the next 6 months. This time in my life, is harder than it has ever been. I've never felt as stressed as i do now! It's so hard for me right now.
So... with that said, Feel free to beat me up side the head for being so short, and difficult, and unwilling to be reasonable.. or i guess i should say.... beat me upside the head for being worse than usual.. (someones going to yell at me for saying that)... what i'm saying is that... I know i'm a difficult person to deal with and that.... I don't know... just that I'm sorta out of it right now... Things have been weird for the last month or 2 because I've realized that everything that I've been doing for t he last 7 years is coming to a close. Everything i've worked so hard at... is about to be finished... and if they don't end up right, I don't know what I'll do. I'm not sure i could even handle that... ok... this is long enough... just give me some grace.. and compassion.. and maybe a little love.. Lord knows i need it! (hehe)