.....good to be back in burbanK.
This has to be my first livejournal entry in at least a year...idk, i dont keep count, but what I have realized is that nothing really makes you stop and just realize how many things have changed like running into old friends, or just talking to some random person you met at one time in your life, again for the first time in over a year. It makes you think back and remember who you were at the time, what you wanted from life, your fears, your goals, and what you wanted and with whom you wanted to accomplish them.
but these things never stay the same, people change, its inevitable. mostly its minor changes, and you keep your core, but sometimes things change drastically for a reason...people enter your life, people go off on a hiatus for a while, or you are introduced to people that you havent seen since high school, and its so good to see them, to have an interruption in the repetetive-ness of life.
I've been in a relationship for over a year and a half, and still only take it one month at a time, and judge it from there. I think long term goals make people expect too much out of a relationship...to say that your ready to marry at 19? how do you know? you still have so much more to experience, people to meet, places to go, hangovers to shake off, before you really decide who you are and who you want to settle down with in the long haul. If its with the person you started with, then things worked out.
despite what i say in the next few paragraphs, i cant help but change myself, realizing mistakes, and forming regrets that are naturally too late to do anything about now. maybe someday those chances will become available again, and ill not be as naive, and just give it a shot. the worst that can happen is that it doesnt go as good as you think it would, and even then you can manage it still. but you cant say you didnt try. could be good, could be bad.
oh yea,
I dont like change.
I get comfortable with the people, good times, and surroundings that are with me, and then I get attached to them, and dont want them to change.
Im no psychiatrist but im sure everyone has at least experienced this once.
and I must say though, as much as I dont like it, im learning to cope and welcome it which is necessary to do to stay alive.
Ive gotten better in my core arch classes, mainly studio, but have lacked on general eds and seemingly are facing with endless money and car problems as I struggle throughout college to stay barely above surface.
i guess the purpose of this para-rant was to realize what that great movie anchorman said oh so many years ago.
"these times, they are a changin"
and nothing could be more truthful then that.
but these things never stay the same, people change, its inevitable. mostly its minor changes, and you keep your core, but sometimes things change drastically for a reason...people enter your life, people go off on a hiatus for a while, or you are introduced to people that you havent seen since high school, and its so good to see them, to have an interruption in the repetetive-ness of life.
I've been in a relationship for over a year and a half, and still only take it one month at a time, and judge it from there. I think long term goals make people expect too much out of a relationship...to say that your ready to marry at 19? how do you know? you still have so much more to experience, people to meet, places to go, hangovers to shake off, before you really decide who you are and who you want to settle down with in the long haul. If its with the person you started with, then things worked out.
despite what i say in the next few paragraphs, i cant help but change myself, realizing mistakes, and forming regrets that are naturally too late to do anything about now. maybe someday those chances will become available again, and ill not be as naive, and just give it a shot. the worst that can happen is that it doesnt go as good as you think it would, and even then you can manage it still. but you cant say you didnt try. could be good, could be bad.
oh yea,
I dont like change.
I get comfortable with the people, good times, and surroundings that are with me, and then I get attached to them, and dont want them to change.
Im no psychiatrist but im sure everyone has at least experienced this once.
and I must say though, as much as I dont like it, im learning to cope and welcome it which is necessary to do to stay alive.
Ive gotten better in my core arch classes, mainly studio, but have lacked on general eds and seemingly are facing with endless money and car problems as I struggle throughout college to stay barely above surface.
i guess the purpose of this para-rant was to realize what that great movie anchorman said oh so many years ago.
"these times, they are a changin"
and nothing could be more truthful then that.