on love.
This is what I have concluded. Love is a choice. Therefore, I will not be foolish in my belief that I fall into it. No, I do not fall in or out but I choose to be in it. And I don't think that this kind of choice leads to any such lack in the "in love" feelings. I do not think the choice to love will result in a lack of the "feelings", the butterflies when I see him, or getting nervous just to be around him. For me it is being more cautious and aware of our relationship. I want to date someone who can be my best friend for those points when we're not attracted to each other, for those days when we piss each other off or our relationship is on the rocks. Because hell, thats going to be a lot of it. I want to be aware to the fullest extent and grounded in reality. Maybe this is recent experiences speaking for me, my feelings of foolishness not looking past the "best behavior", for being a poor judge of character. Or maybe it is a result of all the fast engagements occurring around me. It is probably compounded with my fear of an isolating relationship where a vast gorge separates and it is continually made wider with no effort to forge a bridge. I do not think it is an absurd notion for me to lean towards the more rational side of things, after all, I think in love I can be very irrational. So therefore, it will be a more logistic choice next time. I will not be as rational and contrived as Guy with his personality types and love language theories on dating, but I will not be so foolish. And I will not become a statistic.