Re:Email to hiromi

[schaff]

I'm not feeling better...

About last Wed, I don't want to drag you around. I wanted to spend time with you
like I see other couples do. And I was so suprised that you
were mad at me for taking you out with me, because once you told me, "I just
want to be with you. It doesn't matter where we go." So when you got mad at me
I didn't understand. I just wanted to be with you. Also you said you were bored
so... eee wakarimasen.

Also, you say, "I want (a) comfy mood between you and I. That's what I want." but
when I'm comfortable with you (like on Wednesday) You are mad at me. I'm afraid
to talk to you Hiromi. I worry that I will say "What did you do today?" or
"How was your day" So insted I think I will just say nothing. cause you will
just get mad and hate me again.

My mom says "You can't change people." All night lasts night I kept thinking that.
I can't change you Hiromi and You can't change me. so If you think you can deal
with me and my problems then we might be ok. But I don't think I can take you
getting mad at me anymore.

You always talk about how you care for other people more than you care for yourself.
But you don't! If you cared about me so much then why you do you always get mad at me
for every little thing I do. All you care about is yourself. And when I do think
you care about me, You attack and blow up on me.

I will do my best to not upset you Hiromi. But sometimes what I think will be fun
is not what you think will be fun. I can never make you happy, I don't know why
you say you love me.

Paul

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