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what motivates you? i don't usually think of myself as a motivated individual, but i find that i've been confronted with the issue of motivation for the past year. and it has nothing to do with me.
i've found that financial issues and my loved ones motivate me.
finances first. I CAN'T AFFORD TO SLACK OFF IN SCHOOL. like, literally can't afford it. nobody in my family is paying for me to go to school. i rely on scholarships and grants to be here. if i slack off, go on academic probation, and continue to slack off, i'll lose all my scholarships. and that means i can't go to school. no one in my family can afford thousands of dollars worth of tuition. and if i don't go to school, i won't get a good job, nobody will want to marry me, and if by some odd chance i have children, i won't be able to support them and give them all i want to give them. enough said.
loved ones. who wants to hang out with some slackass chick who can't make herself sit down and study for an hour or two a night? i'd be forever mooching off of all my friends, and eventually i'm afraid i'll lose them.
i bring this entire issue up because my roommate can't/won't motivate herself. i don't get it. i vented to josh about it, and he doesn't get it either. i think he was more moved than i was. here's the really long story.
she's in my history class, along with two other really good friends. well when we have a history exam, the teacher gives us a sheet that has eight essay questions on it, and two of those questions will appear on the exam and we'll have to choose one to answer. so basically you have to study all eight to be fully prepared. well, for our first exam, the four of us gathered in the library the night before the exam and stayed there most of the night studying. we got a study room and me, maheen, and nitin split up the essays and wrote them separately so we could share our answers. then we made copies of each others' essays so we could study some more by ourselves. my roommate just sat there and did nothing the whole time. she says it really helps her to just sit there and listen to us discuss the essays. says "storytime" is the best way for her to "study." i believe this to be complete bullshit. i say it's not fair to have three of us writing and actually STUDYING while she gets to sit there and play games on her phone. and yet she still reaps the benefits of our work. i mean she ended up getting a lower grade than we did, but it wasn't that much lower. anyway, i got fed up and when the teacher handed out the essay topics for our next exam, we decided to write an essay every now and then so that when we got together to study the night before the exam we wouldn't spend most of that time writing the essays. we figured we'd have four versions of answers for each essay and we could compare them and it would be less likely that something important would be left out. well we just started our essays last week and our exam is this monday. i know that maheen, nitin, and i have been working on them. this afternoon i asked my roommate what she's done so far and she says, "nothing." and i ask her why and she tells me because she "can't." she says she just can't sit down and write them. i'm like "well you can because you do it for the exam" and she just keeps saying she can't, and that she doesn't want to. well i cut her some slack and tell her to go through the material and make up forty multiple choice questions to help prepare us for the multiple choice portion of the exam, and she says that's too hard. AND I'M LIKE WELL I'D MUCH RATHER MAKE UP QUESTIONS THAN WRITE EIGHT DAMN ESSAYS. so i tell her she has to contribute something to our study group cuz it's only fair, and she says if you don't want me to study with you guys then i won't and i say well you have to "study" with us because i know that if you don't do it with us then you won't do it at all. and she agrees.
i haven't talked to nitin about it, but maheen agrees. and so does josh. i mean i think it's only fair that if everyone else is writing essays then she should have to do something too. do you guys agree? i really want your opinions on this.
back to motivation. she has none. like she says, "today will be the last day i lie in bed and skip class. next week i'm going to all my classes and i'm gonna jam out til the end of semester." that's crap. i have yet to see her "jam out." and normally it wouldn't bother me but when it comes to me and two others doing ALL THE WORK and she not contribute anything, i get a little irked.
i'm sorry this entire entry has been a complete rant, but i feel really strongly about this, and rants are a part of the purpose of a blog anyway, i guess.
really. do you agree? or not? either way, i want to know.
i've found that financial issues and my loved ones motivate me.
finances first. I CAN'T AFFORD TO SLACK OFF IN SCHOOL. like, literally can't afford it. nobody in my family is paying for me to go to school. i rely on scholarships and grants to be here. if i slack off, go on academic probation, and continue to slack off, i'll lose all my scholarships. and that means i can't go to school. no one in my family can afford thousands of dollars worth of tuition. and if i don't go to school, i won't get a good job, nobody will want to marry me, and if by some odd chance i have children, i won't be able to support them and give them all i want to give them. enough said.
loved ones. who wants to hang out with some slackass chick who can't make herself sit down and study for an hour or two a night? i'd be forever mooching off of all my friends, and eventually i'm afraid i'll lose them.
i bring this entire issue up because my roommate can't/won't motivate herself. i don't get it. i vented to josh about it, and he doesn't get it either. i think he was more moved than i was. here's the really long story.
she's in my history class, along with two other really good friends. well when we have a history exam, the teacher gives us a sheet that has eight essay questions on it, and two of those questions will appear on the exam and we'll have to choose one to answer. so basically you have to study all eight to be fully prepared. well, for our first exam, the four of us gathered in the library the night before the exam and stayed there most of the night studying. we got a study room and me, maheen, and nitin split up the essays and wrote them separately so we could share our answers. then we made copies of each others' essays so we could study some more by ourselves. my roommate just sat there and did nothing the whole time. she says it really helps her to just sit there and listen to us discuss the essays. says "storytime" is the best way for her to "study." i believe this to be complete bullshit. i say it's not fair to have three of us writing and actually STUDYING while she gets to sit there and play games on her phone. and yet she still reaps the benefits of our work. i mean she ended up getting a lower grade than we did, but it wasn't that much lower. anyway, i got fed up and when the teacher handed out the essay topics for our next exam, we decided to write an essay every now and then so that when we got together to study the night before the exam we wouldn't spend most of that time writing the essays. we figured we'd have four versions of answers for each essay and we could compare them and it would be less likely that something important would be left out. well we just started our essays last week and our exam is this monday. i know that maheen, nitin, and i have been working on them. this afternoon i asked my roommate what she's done so far and she says, "nothing." and i ask her why and she tells me because she "can't." she says she just can't sit down and write them. i'm like "well you can because you do it for the exam" and she just keeps saying she can't, and that she doesn't want to. well i cut her some slack and tell her to go through the material and make up forty multiple choice questions to help prepare us for the multiple choice portion of the exam, and she says that's too hard. AND I'M LIKE WELL I'D MUCH RATHER MAKE UP QUESTIONS THAN WRITE EIGHT DAMN ESSAYS. so i tell her she has to contribute something to our study group cuz it's only fair, and she says if you don't want me to study with you guys then i won't and i say well you have to "study" with us because i know that if you don't do it with us then you won't do it at all. and she agrees.
i haven't talked to nitin about it, but maheen agrees. and so does josh. i mean i think it's only fair that if everyone else is writing essays then she should have to do something too. do you guys agree? i really want your opinions on this.
back to motivation. she has none. like she says, "today will be the last day i lie in bed and skip class. next week i'm going to all my classes and i'm gonna jam out til the end of semester." that's crap. i have yet to see her "jam out." and normally it wouldn't bother me but when it comes to me and two others doing ALL THE WORK and she not contribute anything, i get a little irked.
i'm sorry this entire entry has been a complete rant, but i feel really strongly about this, and rants are a part of the purpose of a blog anyway, i guess.
really. do you agree? or not? either way, i want to know.