I Suck

[scene_tastic]

There are a lot of apologies I need to make and would
like to make as soon as possible.

I can only really mention one at the moment. And I
am only doing it here because I am too afraid to talk
to her in person.

Alicia, I've made mistakes. You know that. But the
biggest was the stupid things I decided to say
to you. I don't even know if you are going to
read this, but I need to say it. It's not because
I feel guilt or I need to make myself feel better,
it is because this is how I really feel. I NEED
you in my life. There are so many things that I
have gotten through just because of you. I can't
throw that away because I'm being to stubborn to
apologize. You might accept my apology or not,
but I really hope you do. Gradually over time we
became less of friends, but I don't want things
to be like they are now. I can't even look at you
anymore because I seriously feel like crying for the
things that I said. I want to talk to you in person
so badly, but I am too much of a coward to do it.
So if you read this, please know that I feel the
most hurt I ever have because of the things I
did and said.

Sorry,
Ryan