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i will never be happy or satisified.
sunday. the day which is pretty much my day of rest. I've realized a lot these past few weeks. I can't trust or love no one.
i've realized I think I just want to be alone. I've also realized im pretty much done trying to be the "paris hilton" and trying to make a lot ofr friends and mingle with different people. its sad. its like i always have to fucking pick and choose my friends. i wish all my friends could just hang out together. but i know that is not true. I've also learned that it sucks that I can never be that ultimate friend. im sorry im not perfect.
and i miss a certain someone. it sucks how much avoidance have taken place. was it something i said? something I did? I don't know its like I wish I could seriously go back in time. Go back to those weeks of where I felt happy. And how I didn't realize and appreciate those times. *sigh*
no more booze. well heavy liquor. no more random makeouts. i actually dislike it kinda of. heh.
but yea. im sorry everyone im sorry I am lashaye and im just not a good person. forgive me while i try to fix my broken self.
revalute my life and friends. yes.
jessika. ha black history month has been crazy. but i love it that we shared a pretty much oopsie omg, nature makeout, sleep in hot boy bed month. ha.
but im ready for this month to end. its like a constant repeat. i need march to come. march to come with warmth and beauty.
sunday. the day which is pretty much my day of rest. I've realized a lot these past few weeks. I can't trust or love no one.
i've realized I think I just want to be alone. I've also realized im pretty much done trying to be the "paris hilton" and trying to make a lot ofr friends and mingle with different people. its sad. its like i always have to fucking pick and choose my friends. i wish all my friends could just hang out together. but i know that is not true. I've also learned that it sucks that I can never be that ultimate friend. im sorry im not perfect.
and i miss a certain someone. it sucks how much avoidance have taken place. was it something i said? something I did? I don't know its like I wish I could seriously go back in time. Go back to those weeks of where I felt happy. And how I didn't realize and appreciate those times. *sigh*
no more booze. well heavy liquor. no more random makeouts. i actually dislike it kinda of. heh.
but yea. im sorry everyone im sorry I am lashaye and im just not a good person. forgive me while i try to fix my broken self.
revalute my life and friends. yes.
jessika. ha black history month has been crazy. but i love it that we shared a pretty much oopsie omg, nature makeout, sleep in hot boy bed month. ha.
but im ready for this month to end. its like a constant repeat. i need march to come. march to come with warmth and beauty.