In which Jonny gets stressed.
I. Am. So. Tired.
This past week and a half has blurred together into one large day. The hours that I should be sleeping at night have been reduced to mere power naps (and believe you me, they are none too powerful) between school work, my part-time job and rehearsals.
I keep having anxiety attacks about this summer. What am I going to do if I don't wind up with an internship? Am I going to have to spend the entire sitting around at home? Do I stay at school? How will I support myself?
I am still in the research part of the process. After searching Playbill today, I found some interesting leads. Need to talk to Dad about his LA contact; might have found some other universities in NYC that provide cheaper summer housing.
If I am able to land an internship with 6 hours of course credit, I will be able to qualify for financial aid- which means more loans. I fear that this is the only realistic way that I will be able to support myself for an entire summer in a major metropolitan area. I have come of the opinion, however, that educational loans, in my situation, are a necessity. If I accrue debt in college, it just meens that I have to do something wonderful in my life in order to pay it off. Besides, I've added up the numbers, and the amount of debt that I plan on having when I graduate college is only a fraction of what others will pay at larger universities.
Where's my anonymous benefactor when I need him!? Welcome to life, I suppose?