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I never update this thing. Its probably because I only used it when I was in high school and now Im 2 years out of high school and I dont talk to a sing person I went to high school with.
I guess a lot has changed since I last updated. I moved out of the dorms and back in with my parents, quit going to college, then moved out of my parents into an apartment with my two gay best friends, had a major blow out with said gay boys, moved out of the amazing downtown apartment and now I am back with my parents in a shitty redneck town.
I work 7 hours a day and I get my bills paid. I have probably a handful of internet friends that I would trust with my life and I have no real life friends.
Im fat, Im ugly and Im gross.
I have huge dreams and sometimes, I dont think I am ever going to accomplish them.
Im supposed to go to my first TAI show in months on Friday with a guy Ive been lying to for 2 years, the entire time Ive known him. I have a bad feeling that he is going to bail on me and I will be driving to Atlanta by myself just to see 4 out of 5 guys Ive known for years. They arent even the same people I know anymore. They've changed and have gotten famous and are too busy to even say hello anymore.
I'd give anything to have Shea and Kari and Lindsay back in my life. Atleast back then, my life made sense and I felt like I had a purpose.
I was a liar and Ive fucked up my life beyond belief. All I ever wanted was for people to like me. But how can anyone like me when I dont even like myself?
Im going to go back to watching Will and Grace.
I guess a lot has changed since I last updated. I moved out of the dorms and back in with my parents, quit going to college, then moved out of my parents into an apartment with my two gay best friends, had a major blow out with said gay boys, moved out of the amazing downtown apartment and now I am back with my parents in a shitty redneck town.
I work 7 hours a day and I get my bills paid. I have probably a handful of internet friends that I would trust with my life and I have no real life friends.
Im fat, Im ugly and Im gross.
I have huge dreams and sometimes, I dont think I am ever going to accomplish them.
Im supposed to go to my first TAI show in months on Friday with a guy Ive been lying to for 2 years, the entire time Ive known him. I have a bad feeling that he is going to bail on me and I will be driving to Atlanta by myself just to see 4 out of 5 guys Ive known for years. They arent even the same people I know anymore. They've changed and have gotten famous and are too busy to even say hello anymore.
I'd give anything to have Shea and Kari and Lindsay back in my life. Atleast back then, my life made sense and I felt like I had a purpose.
I was a liar and Ive fucked up my life beyond belief. All I ever wanted was for people to like me. But how can anyone like me when I dont even like myself?
Im going to go back to watching Will and Grace.