When the whole world fits inside of your arms...
Wellllllll...
Jonny is gone for two months, maybe more, depending on how things go. It was so hard to drive away from him last night. He just stared at my car, and I stared in the rearview mirror till I couldn't see him anymore, and then I cried. Some more, cause lord knows his shirt was wet when we let go of each other. And it might sound weird, but I wish he had cried, too. His eyes were so sad, but they were dry, and it made me feel worse in a way. So I cried some more.
And then I turned up Jack Johnson. Thank you, Jack Johnson.
I realized today, though, that we can get through this. Like, I actually understand it, I'm not just telling myself that anymore. Because I thought of Eva and Richie. They do this all the time. Richie goes away to school for months at a time, and they love each other and they talk and they're happy. And its not exactly the same thing, but its only two months, and Jonny and I love each other enough to realize that two months out of (hopefully) a life time is not a big price to pay.
And yes, that was me admitting that I want to marry him, if no one noticed. And I don't care what anyone thinks. There are things you know and understand that no one else can, and that's one of them, so no bullshit comments about it, please.
Anyway, I will be sad and emo sometimes, but I think its finally sunk in that I will be ok, he will be ok, and we will be ok. I'm moving tomorrow, and that helps, even though an apartment of my own isn't as exciting as an apartment with Jonny in it to wake up to every morning. But in time...I just wish I was more patient sometimes. I guess there's no better time to work on that than now, is there?
Jonny is gone for two months, maybe more, depending on how things go. It was so hard to drive away from him last night. He just stared at my car, and I stared in the rearview mirror till I couldn't see him anymore, and then I cried. Some more, cause lord knows his shirt was wet when we let go of each other. And it might sound weird, but I wish he had cried, too. His eyes were so sad, but they were dry, and it made me feel worse in a way. So I cried some more.
And then I turned up Jack Johnson. Thank you, Jack Johnson.
I realized today, though, that we can get through this. Like, I actually understand it, I'm not just telling myself that anymore. Because I thought of Eva and Richie. They do this all the time. Richie goes away to school for months at a time, and they love each other and they talk and they're happy. And its not exactly the same thing, but its only two months, and Jonny and I love each other enough to realize that two months out of (hopefully) a life time is not a big price to pay.
And yes, that was me admitting that I want to marry him, if no one noticed. And I don't care what anyone thinks. There are things you know and understand that no one else can, and that's one of them, so no bullshit comments about it, please.
Anyway, I will be sad and emo sometimes, but I think its finally sunk in that I will be ok, he will be ok, and we will be ok. I'm moving tomorrow, and that helps, even though an apartment of my own isn't as exciting as an apartment with Jonny in it to wake up to every morning. But in time...I just wish I was more patient sometimes. I guess there's no better time to work on that than now, is there?