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i have so much to tell dont mind if its not in order by day because you will notice im going to jump around Alot.! yesterday in english class we were reading a poem about friendship. ms price my teahcer asked the class what was inportant in a friendship immedeatly 6 people called out the word trust or honesty first. like they were waiting to share the secrets. its not a secret but it was somehthing i was ashamed of something that people cheated me on all the time. so i sun even lower in my seat trying to hid the disgrace of the people around me. she looked at me noticed the look on my face had changed and asked me the next qeustion. not the whole class. just me alone: how can someone be " in society" but "removed" from it at the same time. i looked at her for a minute people started clling out suggestions but i didnt need them because i knew the answer. i knew exactly what she meant. finally i said: " for example, you can go to a public school, and maybe you alk to people, but you keep everything about you a mystery you dont talk to them about yourself, the topic must never be about yourself. you hide all answers that will lead them to you and talk about yourself as if your telling them all ou know when in fact you just made it up. you hide yourself in the scenery as if your a part of it so everyone else will pass you by thinknig nothing is there" the classroom went silent. i gave them a clue. they noticed and that sucks, but maybe its time they do stop passing me by.
yesterday i took hannah, licoln and kenzi to the park. not the one at the elementary school but the giant sized one. georges sister came up to me on roller blades, asked me how i was. i said good. but is that true. she looked at the children and said" i heard about them an awful lot" yea you have. and i told her who was who. she said she was doing good then rolled away. why did i want her to stay? i wished there was something else to say to her but i didnt know what. its not that i miss her specificaly. i miss her family. but i sup[pose that is just something that im going to have to deal with right?? yea.. thats it.
school has been okay i had alot of study periods and whole lot of nothing to do. i dont mind anymore, i grab a book and read it while im walking to drown out the nose in the hallyway. i dont want to hear the crowd because i dont want to get involved.
over the weekend i went to a cookout. it was nice to be around them. all though half the time i didnt have much to say.
yesterday i took hannah, licoln and kenzi to the park. not the one at the elementary school but the giant sized one. georges sister came up to me on roller blades, asked me how i was. i said good. but is that true. she looked at the children and said" i heard about them an awful lot" yea you have. and i told her who was who. she said she was doing good then rolled away. why did i want her to stay? i wished there was something else to say to her but i didnt know what. its not that i miss her specificaly. i miss her family. but i sup[pose that is just something that im going to have to deal with right?? yea.. thats it.
school has been okay i had alot of study periods and whole lot of nothing to do. i dont mind anymore, i grab a book and read it while im walking to drown out the nose in the hallyway. i dont want to hear the crowd because i dont want to get involved.
over the weekend i went to a cookout. it was nice to be around them. all though half the time i didnt have much to say.