ya i hope spmeone reads this
well
i never update
cause no one cares
me and nikki aree fighting
i love her to death
im sad cause i think she hates me
so ya :(
i never update
cause no one cares
me and nikki aree fighting
i love her to death
im sad cause i think she hates me
so ya :(
I really hate us lately.
It's just not fun.
I feel bad all of the time.
and you aren't acting like yourself.
and telling me that you won't tell me you love me doesn't make me feel better.
it makes me feel like you don't love me.
and you hardly talk to me,
like you wanted to play guitar hero yesterday
more than you wanted to talk to me.
so you let me go.
You don't know how much that hurt me and made me feel bad,
and I always thought you'd never intentionally make me feel bad.
turns out that every guy that ever said that to me lied.
and I just want to show you what real love is.
Suanne told me how she was married before, and slept with MANY people before she met Mike.
Mike wouldn't sleep with her until they were married.
and the way that Mike was made her realize that she never felt so good in her life.
and that she NEVER loved until she met Mike.
and um she was married before.
So that's a big deal.
I just want to make you realize something,
but you'd never admit that because you're always like blah I've loved 2 people before.
You're wrong.
You haven't.
You just don't understand.
And it's going to be really sad if you never understand this,
because I'll be holding back
and I can't do that anymore.
It wasn't love. It was lust.
You might as well just admit it.
But maybe you need to realize it, and that's all I'm trying to do.
and when I'm trying to do something good for you, and for us, you make it seem like it's so bad.
and it's really not.
I mean I was upset the other day, so I thought that survery would make me feel better.
It made me feel worse.
So I pretended that I loved jeremy, even though I know I didn't.
I'm not playing stupid games with you anymore.
I'm going to tell you straight out my opinions and what I think.
If you have a problem with that, then maybe you shouldn't be with me.
*Nicole
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