it's been

[scarygreg]

it's been a rough year some definite huge high's and some huge lows, im getting a rumbling in my stomach that it's gonna end with a thud...people all want different things in life, different things make different people happy. i always thought i wasnt very complicated, maybe i dont want the american dream right now...loving wife, 2.4 kids, golden retriever etc. but i found a woman that i want to love me, i so want to fall for her and maybe down deep i already have i dont know, i try to keep her at arms lenght but it's not working right now and my audition is over soon i fear.

I cant help but wonder that if all is said and done and what i think may happen happens, will it all have been worth it?