let me tell you about the birds and the bees and the flowers and the trees
crazy crazy crazy-ness! I just took one exam and I´m getting ready to take another. Tomorrow night I leave for Madrid and then BELGIUM! Lacey goes back to the states tomorrow, too. It´ll be weird having her gone. Tonight is my last night to see Gavin, the irish boy. Ali says I don´t care about him at all, which is not true. I do like him, but I´m not trying to get so attached to someone who is leaving and probably won´t keep in touch. Even if we do, what are we going to say to one another? Oh I don´t know, maybe I´m just trying to keep my distance. The truth of the matter is that I had other intentions than making a friend when I met him. Anyway, he wants to do something kind of romantic like and I can´t help but feeling uncomfortable. I just don´t understand what is going on in that brain of his. I wish he were just a normal jerky guy and that he would say, "okay, i´ve had my fun with her. time to move on." But nooooo he wants to go to the Alhambra with me. Ha, here I am complaining about an actually decent guy. But he leaves, so there´s no point to some of his actions. Oh, whatever.
I haven´t packed yet. I don´t even know where to begin. I´ll be gone for ten days and somehow I have to manage to fit everything i need in a bookbag. It´s either that or lug around a suitcase the whole time, which I suppose is possible. I´m typing super fast right now and i love it because i hardly get to type anymore.
Ryan hurt his ankle. Different than home Ryan. I like this Ryan, too, however. He´s a smartass. And he, unlike Gavin, will be here for at least 3 more months and he lives in the states! Woooooooo
I miss my Eliza-beth. It sounds like she needs someone to talk to and I wish I were there for her. I´d get her a milkshake. Some chinese food maybe. And just sit and listen. I just like to be in the presence of people I love. It makes me happy. And I´d give her a huge hug of course. I could use a bit of home (which she kinda is to me), too. Someone who knows me. It´s strange here, because people just see a completely different version of me. I wonder which one is more real. Maybe they both are. Maybe I´m just using this freedom to do what I want.
Anyway, this is a decent sized entry and I´m loopy from medication. Which sucks since I have to take a test. Thanks for reading. much love.
I haven´t packed yet. I don´t even know where to begin. I´ll be gone for ten days and somehow I have to manage to fit everything i need in a bookbag. It´s either that or lug around a suitcase the whole time, which I suppose is possible. I´m typing super fast right now and i love it because i hardly get to type anymore.
Ryan hurt his ankle. Different than home Ryan. I like this Ryan, too, however. He´s a smartass. And he, unlike Gavin, will be here for at least 3 more months and he lives in the states! Woooooooo
I miss my Eliza-beth. It sounds like she needs someone to talk to and I wish I were there for her. I´d get her a milkshake. Some chinese food maybe. And just sit and listen. I just like to be in the presence of people I love. It makes me happy. And I´d give her a huge hug of course. I could use a bit of home (which she kinda is to me), too. Someone who knows me. It´s strange here, because people just see a completely different version of me. I wonder which one is more real. Maybe they both are. Maybe I´m just using this freedom to do what I want.
Anyway, this is a decent sized entry and I´m loopy from medication. Which sucks since I have to take a test. Thanks for reading. much love.