this is me avoiding my homework;
i was driving today and i somehow found myself in one of my "deeper moments" where i think about EVERYTHING. i hate those and love them at the same time. it's so much easier to go through life without thinking a lot. being in an "inebriated" (10 pts for vocab) state of mind, stumbling through it without having worries or anything holding you back.
and then other times i just wish there was an answer key. to everything. to life. i know it's taking the easy way out. it's like studying for a test. you make the decisions yourself and you're confident, but you just need to double check what's right so if you do make the wrong choice, you know what to change. because without knowing "right from wrong", it's impossible to be fully aware of what you're changing into. and if you do "pick the wrong choice", it's good to know that there are other options and you can learn why what you chose was wrong, not just wondering why. i just like to have answers to my questions.
i seem to be doing that a lot. asking a lot of questions and never getting any answers. or maybe it's the complete opposite. i know the answers, but i don't know what i'm asking. or what i'm supposed to ask. it's a mix of both, i suppose.
the irony with this is that i hate math and sciences because i like being able to have multiple answers, nothing definite. my personality contradicts my intuition. to put it into lamens terms, i like having multiple choices, as long as there's a key to why each could be right. i like variety as long as what i liked before is still there and unchanged. i like to have the best of both worlds. i like to be on vacation, but still be at home, not missing anything that i love.
i love metaphors.
this was a confusing entry. i was going to do one of those ones where i write about myself, but it would be a novel of contradictions and more questions.
and i've just decided, on a happier note, to express how EXCITED i am that i won a free membership dealy thing to bally's! i'm exciiited i love working out. julie and leanne--we gotta plan out our workouts for after schoool. because PS i decided we're exercising together haha.
i also decided that the goo goo dolls + third eye blind would be the greatest concert of all time. any one who disagrees with me--go to hell.
PS you know what else makes me happy? pink. i know i know- i buy it way to much. but i love my new pink shades<3/bag/tanktopS/shoes/wardrobe/life.
i did buy a blue dress though.
someone get me out of my serious/thinking mood and into a crazy party mood. i need to not think. someone make me stop thinking!
and then other times i just wish there was an answer key. to everything. to life. i know it's taking the easy way out. it's like studying for a test. you make the decisions yourself and you're confident, but you just need to double check what's right so if you do make the wrong choice, you know what to change. because without knowing "right from wrong", it's impossible to be fully aware of what you're changing into. and if you do "pick the wrong choice", it's good to know that there are other options and you can learn why what you chose was wrong, not just wondering why. i just like to have answers to my questions.
i seem to be doing that a lot. asking a lot of questions and never getting any answers. or maybe it's the complete opposite. i know the answers, but i don't know what i'm asking. or what i'm supposed to ask. it's a mix of both, i suppose.
the irony with this is that i hate math and sciences because i like being able to have multiple answers, nothing definite. my personality contradicts my intuition. to put it into lamens terms, i like having multiple choices, as long as there's a key to why each could be right. i like variety as long as what i liked before is still there and unchanged. i like to have the best of both worlds. i like to be on vacation, but still be at home, not missing anything that i love.
i love metaphors.
this was a confusing entry. i was going to do one of those ones where i write about myself, but it would be a novel of contradictions and more questions.
and i've just decided, on a happier note, to express how EXCITED i am that i won a free membership dealy thing to bally's! i'm exciiited i love working out. julie and leanne--we gotta plan out our workouts for after schoool. because PS i decided we're exercising together haha.
i also decided that the goo goo dolls + third eye blind would be the greatest concert of all time. any one who disagrees with me--go to hell.
PS you know what else makes me happy? pink. i know i know- i buy it way to much. but i love my new pink shades<3/bag/tanktopS/shoes/wardrobe/life.
i did buy a blue dress though.
someone get me out of my serious/thinking mood and into a crazy party mood. i need to not think. someone make me stop thinking!