Back to School
Smokingboot (how do you do the display someone as a username thing?) has very kindly sent me a list of usernames of some people I know, thinking that perhaps I would want to add them to my friends.
Immediately a curious shyness comes upon me. Most of these people are well-known to me in a vague, see them every year at events kind of way. But friends? *screws toe in the floor* maybe they won't want me.
It took me a while to track down the sensation I was feeling, but it turns out to be the feeling you get when you joined a new school. I want lots of new friends, I want to be in the middle of this new peer group, I want to [I]belong[I]. (excuse me if that comes out with weird brackets, I wanted to test how the hell you do italics or bold around here). But am I interesting enough for them to let me belong?
Kind boot loves me and wants to be my friend. But having read snippets of her journal (and howled with laughter at various good bits of her scribblings), I wonder what I have to offer others in the way of interesting reading.
Cor. Treasure this moment, all those who know me. This is Self-Doubt, and you won't see its like again I assure you.
Immediately a curious shyness comes upon me. Most of these people are well-known to me in a vague, see them every year at events kind of way. But friends? *screws toe in the floor* maybe they won't want me.
It took me a while to track down the sensation I was feeling, but it turns out to be the feeling you get when you joined a new school. I want lots of new friends, I want to be in the middle of this new peer group, I want to [I]belong[I]. (excuse me if that comes out with weird brackets, I wanted to test how the hell you do italics or bold around here). But am I interesting enough for them to let me belong?
Kind boot loves me and wants to be my friend. But having read snippets of her journal (and howled with laughter at various good bits of her scribblings), I wonder what I have to offer others in the way of interesting reading.
Cor. Treasure this moment, all those who know me. This is Self-Doubt, and you won't see its like again I assure you.