i wish

[scarswillheal]

I AM -
[x] anorexic
[] ednos
[x] bulimic (laxatives, little bit of gagging and of course exorcise)
[] living off diet pills (got busted a while back........ had to go to mental hospital. =(  )
[x] hungry
[]thirsty
[x] drinking something
[] Under 100lbs (I wish)
[x] wanting to be "under-100-by end of oct
[x] starving yourself
[] participating in a fast with other people

PEOPLE -
[] ask if i'm anorexic/bulimic
[X]call me fat
[] say i'm too skinny
[x] say i'm ugly
[x] say i'm pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[] say i eat too much
[] wish i'd stop
[] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
I WISH -
[x] i was THIN
[x] i had a better body
[x] i didn't have to eat
[x] i could control myself
[x] i was under 100lbs
[x] i could avoid food
[] i could hide what i am
[x] i wasn't fat (I think i am...)
[x] i was pretty
[] i could stop

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[] shaking
[x] being weak, because i know i'm losing weight
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[x] diet soda
[x] coffee
[] laxatives
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself