(no subject)
Today is one of the worst days I have had in a long while. I feel like crawling in a corner and staying there. Atleast I would be alone and wont have to deal with everyones leftover bullshit. It started yesterday when my mother got pissed at me for not being able to get the damn dog in the house. It then spilt over into this morning. Mother got pissed because I didn't wash a blanket. Why didn't I? Because there was three fucking other ones done. Mom and I then get into a huge fight. After about an hour and a half of nothing but yelling and her thinking I am going to just go with what she says, I try to wake up Josten. He wont get up and tells me to shut up. Nice right? Just what I need after a long fight with my mom over nothing! I am getting tired of being everyones shit hole. 'Nicole is nice and doesn't talk back, lets give her all my problems and blame them on her just to make myself feel better!' Well you know what, no. I am tired of it. I don't mind helping people, but being nice all the time just doesn't cut it anymore. It seems once someone finds a 'shit hole' they abuse it. Sure, vent on me but don't fucking blame your shit on me because I am actualy nice enough to listen to your fucking problems. Maybe I should just become some hardcore bitch and push everyone away. Maybe then I wont have to deal with this shit. Sounds nice. Bitchy Nicole or 'shit hole' Nicole? Eh, no compatition. Bitchy Nicole it is!